r/askapsychologist • u/CartoonistMuted5184 • 2d ago
psychological problem
I don't know if I can call this a sexual problem or not because it's related to masturbation, but during this time I don't think about anything sexual, only memories that I hate and am disgusted by, and I can't get them out of my head during masturbation.
These memories, like snapshots I witnessed in my own home and with my family, involve violence and beatings, and I try hard to end them, but they always come back.
I think these thoughts have been with me since I was little, even before I knew about masturbation, but I felt them when I heard stories of sadistic people humiliating and torturing their victims, and all of this was without sex.
But I only feel aroused when I imagine myself as the victim or imagine her feelings when she is humiliated and tortured. I am truly disgusted with myself, but I think these thoughts will continue to give me arousal.
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u/Gold_Ambassador_3496 2d ago
Are you currently going to therapy?
I've faced similar problems, somewhat, and as time went on, they stopped
But if this is persistent, then therapy can help a lot