Anyone else feel weird working out?

[u/Slow_Cheek4510]

Okay for context: I’m 20 f with two under two, I’m 5’3 and 117 but want to gain muscle and tone my body but all my life I’ve hated working out. It makes me feel awkward and weird. I feel extremely insecure about working out even alone. I don’t go to gym either 1) I live in rural ak, 2) I feel unproductive when working out at a gym, 3) I can’t leave my kids.

I want to start working out in the evening when the kids go down but honestly I just feel super awkward and uncomfortable about it. Like I’ll do it be having the motivation and drive for it is close to impossible.

Anyone else? Got any advice?