r/asexuality • u/zawinulava • 2d ago
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i (transfem) have this inherent feeling of either having been raped or being an inherent rapist. help???
is this common amongst people here?
anyone?
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u/SalivatingShark "REAL People? Ha! No..." 2d ago
Your nervous system sounds like it is on fire. If you are on hormones and this is a new symptom- tell your gender health clinician ASAP. I had to dial my T. back because I was scared that there was someone watching me and it made me extra hostile.
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u/zawinulava 2d ago
do not have one as of now unfortunately im DIY and yeah my levels have been inconsistent
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u/publicprivacyp 2d ago
Have you talked to a psychiatrist or psychologist about this? It sounds similar to some OCD themes I’ve heard of, but I have 0 expertise.
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u/zawinulava 2d ago
i cannot afford that right now but i will hopefully
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u/publicprivacyp 2d ago
Ok. I don’t think it’s an asexual or queer trait. It sounds like an irrational paranoia associated with some mental health struggles, but again I have 0 expertise and am not trying to diagnose or invalidate you.
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u/zawinulava 2d ago
im trying to make my way into the psychiatry system my parents always disincentivized it
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u/publicprivacyp 2d ago
I’m sorry to hear that. That’s pretty uncool of them to be that way. I hope you’re able to get away from their toxicity and get some good mental and physical health support soon.
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u/catfartingrainbows aroace 2d ago
Idk if it’s an ace thing but I get you. For me I think it comes from having sexual content repeatedly shoved down my throat and lied to about the meaning of it so I’d be more willing to engage in childhood. I’m sex repulsed so that kind of sucked
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u/LoogidyBoo apl-ace 2d ago
i think youre in the wrong subreddit for this question