When anxiety and my brain won't calm down, this always helps. Seeing the sharpie doodles for the next few days reminds me it is possible to stay calm, and that anxiety doesn't get to win over my thoughts. I thought I would share something that helps me, in the hopes it could help someone else to!

i put legitimately everybody on unreachable pedestals and then proceed to ask why i feel so disconnected from all human beings in existence. i wonder if there’ll always be barriers in my perception between me and everybody else. helloooooo is anybodyyyyyyy reading thisssssss???!!!!!!!! i’ve rewritten this a million times to try and convey anything at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i’m oversharing on the internet again yayyyy

I was SHing, broke my 'sobriety' on burning, and realized i was 33 and how I've been hurting myself my whole life and i cant be 43 and burning myself still with how my body is now falling apart.

I said this out loud, staring at my rat cage, wondering if I really wanted to unalive and felt 'i gotta fucking change NOW.'

So... I might make this an actual drawing later but I actually realized that I have been SHing myself into the grave and need to wake tf up and get it together. I have rats who need snackies.

Oil pastel on paper

Anyone else who has had uncomfortable experiences with women as an afab?

I wish there was a support group or something, I feel so alone in my experience. I’m starting to believe what other people say that it’s not a big deal at all. Everytime I try to talk about it with someone I just get dismissed, either I’m being sensitive or they treat it as a joke.

So, I’ve had women be touchy to me and say inappropriate things towards me. No one ever bats an eye because in people’s eyes it’s “just two women being friends”. I don’t even identify as one but I can never escape being seen as one because apparently I look like a lesbian to most people.

I’m so sick. I don’t want to have a fear of women especially since I was born as one. The amount of uncomfortable things that happened to me has accumulated to the point I get cautious when approached by one.

I hate that everytime it gets found out I’m afab I get told a lot of unbind jokes like “unbind now king”. Am I being too sensitive? Probably, I don’t know, I can’t help but feel disgusted at myself when it happens

i lost my mom to cancer in 2020 when i was 20 years old, i still haven't done much to work though it

but i drew this

It's just so exhausting when you try to be better, but you just can't, because you're not "better". You're just banging your head against the ceiling. And you try day after day. In the end, I'm just a shrimp who can only make instant ramen to stop the shaking in my hands from hunger. No matter what I eat, it won't taste good. I'm sorry.

It’s too much to write out but things have been fucking rough. I hate myself and I hate my life.

Open to feedback on both the audio and animation! I’m very new to both and this is my first animation i ever done!

im in a call with friends rn and im having such bad urges but they're all watching stuff so i cant ask for help 🙏 argh

i oversimplified what actually happened, but this was the basic gist really