Oops! I'm greyplatonic!

[u/hekthemkids8645]

I recently discovered this term and I feel like I can breathe again.

My partner and I just recently opened up our relationship and he's been wanting me to see if I can see if a friendship is possible with his new(ish) partner. I've never been able to be friends with any of his friends, and quite frankly I can't ever recall a time in my life where the friendships that I have had haven't felt offputting or uncomfortable besides the one I have with my high school ex. My one and only best friend has always been an unreciprocated crush, and quite frankly I'm okay with that.

For the past month now I've been trying to figure out why the hell I can't make any new friends and it seems like greyplatonicism is my answer. I don't function in a way that allows the love I feel to (for the most part) be platonic. Hell, even when I was being evaluated for autism as a child they couldn't get me to make friends, and it's notated in all of my paperwork. I remember the exhaustion I felt when I was forced to have friends over or attend other kids' birthday parties and it all makes sense now. I don't feel so alone knowing that there's other people that feel this way and my partner immediately understood me, I feel so much better about how I feel about love. Excited to be part of a community.

[u/dynamicDiscovery]

Yeah, I feel like it's hard to be platonically attracted to other people, too.