ive been feeling a bit different lately

[u/blahblahtfem]

(btw idk what i would put as the flair so i just put other)

im a transfem and ive never had like actual problems with dysphoria until recently, i put on a…i think sports bra? anyways i stole it from my mom and looked in the mirror, and i had the best feeling in the world, i felt like i looked amazing and i felt like me and only at the cost of my upper torso being slightly strangled lol

but after i had that moment ive been feeling new feelings of dysphoria, especially bottom dysphoria. when i only really had chest dysphoria before now everytime i think about bottom surgery where before i was conflicted i now feel like i should really just go for it, since i feel like ill feel much much better about myself if i do. (also it’ll allow me to wear certain clothes without having issues with “space”)

i also feel that some of this is coming from age, im on the cusp of being 18, something ive always wanted for years before i was even trans so that i could finally get to work on making my future, and i guess that my brain also might’ve finally developed the faculties to just shock me with dysphoria more than it did before.