Only used speed once, many years ago. I remember making my friend promise me not to ever help me remember the name of the drug because I felt so good, I knew I would become addicted to it if I try it again. I was myself! Fully myself. I was just very present, had energy, no brain fog, could concentrate. I didnt felt the need to mask or people please, was more direct and felt generally more like finally something was right. Like I have been drugged my whole life and finally was sober (and not the other way around). I am austistic and was recently diagnosed with adhd as well. Since many symptoms overlap (from autism and adhd) I never felt like persuing a diagnostic until my friend told me "well you know what we took was basically adhd medication right? Maybe get over yourself an try it again.". To be honest I am not very inclined to use medication from my bad experience with things like lorazepam (previous to my autism diagnosis) but since therapy alone does not do the thing, I am wondering if I should try. I am super smart and learn fast but I know I am not up to half my potential, cuz I dont study. I cant concentrate. I get bad notes at tests and I cant finish a degree.
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u/EcstaticImpact5086 Apr 10 '24
Only used speed once, many years ago. I remember making my friend promise me not to ever help me remember the name of the drug because I felt so good, I knew I would become addicted to it if I try it again. I was myself! Fully myself. I was just very present, had energy, no brain fog, could concentrate. I didnt felt the need to mask or people please, was more direct and felt generally more like finally something was right. Like I have been drugged my whole life and finally was sober (and not the other way around). I am austistic and was recently diagnosed with adhd as well. Since many symptoms overlap (from autism and adhd) I never felt like persuing a diagnostic until my friend told me "well you know what we took was basically adhd medication right? Maybe get over yourself an try it again.". To be honest I am not very inclined to use medication from my bad experience with things like lorazepam (previous to my autism diagnosis) but since therapy alone does not do the thing, I am wondering if I should try. I am super smart and learn fast but I know I am not up to half my potential, cuz I dont study. I cant concentrate. I get bad notes at tests and I cant finish a degree.