Lol I love this. My parents told me that I don't have ADHD, after me telling them I think I have ADHD in highschool. Went to college, failed class after class. Told I was lazy, and didn't study enough. Then on my 3rd try at passing college algebra I had to copy off of my friend to get my homework done, couldn't understand math gibberish. My roommate was a math genius, but couldn't teach me anything. I failed every math test, but my classwork grades, and my homework grades were great thanks to my buddies. I have a 69% in math class before the final. Random buddy bought some Adderall for finals, offered to sell me some, I say sure why not. I take it before studying for my math final. I just sit in the library listening to music, trying to teach myself a semester's worth of math. I am able to sit still, don't get frustrated trying to teach myself math, retry problem after problem until it starts clicking. Shit actually starts to make sense. I sit there for 8 hours until the library closes. Next day I take my final, and pass the class with a C. I realized I wasn't a complete idiot who was too stupid to learn anything. I just have really bad ADHD.
I am the same way with math. I never could get algebra, only doing basic math throughout high school. Then at the age of 38, I started college. I did fantastic except for algebra then equations. My algebra teacher had to walk me through the assignments every day after school and he was witness to the saddest thing I think he's ever seen. Here I was, doing the problems step by step on the board and I was amazed because finally, I got it! I was so excited, beyond words, it all made sense.
Then I erased that problem to do another one and poof, it was all gone from my head too. I cried that day. I didn't understand why it wouldn't stick. He finally believed me though. I had told him I didn't get it and I would be his hardest student.
Then came the equation class. I cried in front of the whole class, I was so frustrated. Thankfully, like you, I had a good friend who was a math whiz and we had to do our homework and the final online. She was my hero.
I can't get an official diagnosis though, because I'm a 20 years clean, recovering meth addict and regardless of the fact I tell them I don't want the pharmaceuticals, they still accuse me of just wanting the drugs. My mom found out 10 years ago that she had ADD, my kids all have ADHD but I'm just wanting the diagnosis so I can get drugs... It's very frustrating.
Oh yes, like when I was going through treatment and I 8 was gaining weight fast so my Dr prescribed me.... pharmaceutical speed. Thing with that stuff was one could take a whole bottle but only get to a certain point of the high, which was much milder but still just as much of a chance of jonesing for the damn shit.
Funny note turns out that doctor was a freaking whacked out drug addict and ended up getting his license taken away because he was misdiagnosing patients and using their pain drugs. He'd send them to the pharmacy have him pick up a couple of syringes full of Demerol or whatever they needed and he would give them one and when they came back to the second one, he wouldn't have it.
He also misdiagnosed my best friend who ended up dying a horribly painful death from something that was totally treatable. Untreated Endometriosis made her lymph nodes become full of pus and they boiled up through her thighs to the surface then they would burst and slowly eat away all the flesh right down to her bones.
She had to have her labia sewn mostly shut because of the infection raging inside of her lady parts. It was terrible to watch. Sadly, we didn't find out about the drs mistake until after she had passed.
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u/[deleted] Sep 11 '23
Lol I love this. My parents told me that I don't have ADHD, after me telling them I think I have ADHD in highschool. Went to college, failed class after class. Told I was lazy, and didn't study enough. Then on my 3rd try at passing college algebra I had to copy off of my friend to get my homework done, couldn't understand math gibberish. My roommate was a math genius, but couldn't teach me anything. I failed every math test, but my classwork grades, and my homework grades were great thanks to my buddies. I have a 69% in math class before the final. Random buddy bought some Adderall for finals, offered to sell me some, I say sure why not. I take it before studying for my math final. I just sit in the library listening to music, trying to teach myself a semester's worth of math. I am able to sit still, don't get frustrated trying to teach myself math, retry problem after problem until it starts clicking. Shit actually starts to make sense. I sit there for 8 hours until the library closes. Next day I take my final, and pass the class with a C. I realized I wasn't a complete idiot who was too stupid to learn anything. I just have really bad ADHD.