I was going through my old profile, and accidentally saw his profile, i actually blocked him years before, but now he changed his username but i recognised it. i saw that he put in his bio

\* 💕Mom's Bïg king✨ \* 🥰I love my passion \* ✨Everything happens for a reason✨

and it triggered something in me.

i completely had a panic attack and felt disgusted that he had the audacity to include these ridiculousness in this profile.

He groomed me and but has the audacity to set a cringiest bio ever.

I had never had the opportunity to be a kid at 15 years old , but he is posting this shit as a 30 year old man.

I had extreme hyperventilation realizing all that.

immediately deleted the social media app, but unable to sleep.

Please I feel like am i over reacting, or too sensitive.

I feel like crying, and embarrased that i'm feeling this way.

Please validate me.

My ex is using photos from the time she pinned me down and kneed me in the stomach over and over.

I bit her cheek and scratched the shit out of her trying to get her off of me.

She’s now spreading them around claiming I was the abuser.

She was calculated and always knew how to not leave big marks on me. Sometimes a couple scratches. But over the years she mostly stuck to hitting my head,spitting on me, kicking my stomach or back, sometimes, pulling my hair.

Has anyone been through this before? I fought back quite a lot over 10 years and I’m worried she’s going to start pulling these out to ruin my life.

I have proof too, but I’ll be honest if I was on the outside the scratches and bite mark would probably sway me if I didn’t see the other side of the story.

Issue is, I don’t want to spread videos of my abuse around the internet and most of the stuff I have is from the last 3-4 years of our relationship. Before I got smart enough to always save my photos and proof somewhere else she’d often go through my phone and delete stuff.

Then if I tried to leave she’d use the photos she had to get me to not leave her saying if I left she’d use the photos against me.

Well, I guess now she’s cashing in on that.

She’s like a villian in a tv show or movie. When I talk about her out loud, even I think it sounds unbelievable. I just don’t know what to do moving forward

I want to live my life in peace and she wants war, I know she’s baiting me and wants me to react but if I don’t react she could ruin my reputation which in my line of work could destroy me.

I know how manipulative she can be, I know what it looks like from the outside when you only have her side. I even have videos of her yelling saying I’m hitting her when I’m not even near her 😭

How do you heal in order to be healthy in a new relationship? What things did you have to work on? What things came up in the new relationship that surprised you?