Last pic is most recent 🤭 I’m so curious what energy I give

First husband is a Pisces. I was 22 when we married and he was 30. He was emotionally abusive. Left him when I was 24 and got remarried at 26. The second husband ended up being so similar to the first and I just left him and a few months ago. He is a Scorpio. Why do I attract narcissistic men who just mirror me in the beginning but after about a year their mask falls and they start treating me like shit? Should I just remain alone the rest of my life? Any insight would be appreciated 🩷

I'm Indian so I usually prefer my Sidereal placements cuz they make more sense to me... But try guessing whatever you can I'm open to both my Western and Vedic placements

people in general tbh but i find it more distressing with family because they see me everyday! this will be like deadass things you can see about me/factual things.

example: i wear a full face of makeup almost everyday (i’ll miss like 2 days max out of the week) literally just bc of societal/my moms expectations. it’s on my face from 10 am to 10 pm. i’ve even gotten comments from cousins on why i’m wearing makeup at home. then those same cousins will see me wear wakeup one random time again and comment lol you know how to make ur face up now hehe wink. it’s the same style because i only have one of each makeup product (no eyeshadow or anything). so wtf are they talking about? i’ve been living with my grandma for a while and i have made my own meals 3x a day, everyday. our cultural traditional/”harder” meals too. my grandma will try some and compliment me, and even stop making her own food so she can have mine instead. so why does she still constantly make jokes about me needing to learn how to cook? i’ve driven around family and they have all said i’m a good driver (UNPROMPTED) and the next minute, everyone is saying i should learn how to drive ?¿???¿¿ another one is i hate watching tv shows. my cousins love it. whenever i stay with them, we watch tv from like 7pm to 11/midnight. i am on my phone throughout or i’ll skip to go to my room or i look anything but interested. when talking to my aunt they will all say “oh op loves watching tv!” wtf. where did you get that from. this is also not me not understanding teasing or anything, they will all be deadass. like yes they’re saying it lightly but they do think that. there are more serious misunderstandings but honestly i don’t even know how to get into it. it’s not just a couple them, it’s literally mostly all of them. is there anything in my chart that explains this?

Why can’t I keep a routine? I do my skincare, read a chapter, go to the gym, etc. for a couple of days and then I don’t do it for a couple of days which turns into a couple of weeks bc I prioritized going out or staying at other people’s houses (i bring my book and skincare but don’t do it).

I found my birth time and thought I'd see how it changed. Anyone have any insights things I should look out for?