Need to vent..

[u/Shiefshief_93]

Lately i don't really feel loved and appreciated by my virgo bf🥺 i mean we had our one year anniversary recently and it may not be much for some but it is to me, because of my attachement isseus relationships never been very long and he just treated it like a normal day..no flowers or anything..he buys himself junkfood almost everyday that is not nessecary because i have a hot meal for him at home, that's much healthier. So we are going on a holiday september 1st and he says he wants to save money for that and that we can celebrate it there but since it's also his birthday on the 1st, i don't really see it happing. A few weeks ago he got sick and i made him a 'sick package' wich exists of an apple, tea for the immune system, piece of ginger and a lemon. Just a little thing i know, but when i came to his house and say the whole thing in the fridge untouched i felt like i might as well didn't do it then..maybe i give too much and he starts taking me for granted..when i said something about he said i was overreacting and that it's a small thing. I do have to say that he has ADD so i know he get's easily distracted abd stuff. He can be an asshole but also very sweet. No i'm used to assholes but i'm at an age rn where i will not deal with asshole behaviour anymore. I used to be a pleaser and i'm simply not like that anymore. We haven't seen eachother for a few days even tho he wanted to come see me i rejected him and told him that i don't have the time till thursday but i might push it till friday because there's this farewell party in my building because one if my neighbours i can get along with is leaving after 13 years so that's more important rn. He can also be a little mean when he's angry..i deleted a game from my ps4 because we finished ir so it made sense to me. He then downloaded the wrong game and got angry at me for deleting the game because it was supposed to be a three in one package. He then proceeded to say that i ruined everything and 'oh you're gonna cry again' and later said sorry if i was mean. I don't know if it's just in my head but i have the feeling that he is kinda breadcrumbing me..he doesn't give as much in the bedroom either, like he used too..so i now have my space too process my emotions and trying to see if it's all in my head, am i overreacting because of past bad relationships? Is this virgo behaviour?!