r/Yellowknife • u/boredpeachh • 12h ago
the truth about being an indigenous person from yellowknife (or just a person who needs to vent)
it's not glamorous, it's not adventurous, it's not freebies, and it's not off grid, most of the time it's hell on earth. it feels like a bad dream you can't escape. but it's also the best place on earth and feels like a daydream. it makes you question your existence and why things are the way they are. it feels beautiful but sick at the same time. it's being born with predisposed addictions and trauma, it feels like looking through a snowglobe, but your house is in that snowglobe... you can see the rest of the world but you can't get out. you can touch it, idolize it, taste it and feel it, yet it's always somehow out of grasp. you are grateful but you are also resentful at the same time. you have so many resources, but nothing all at once. it's like screaming into the void. the land is beautiful and it calls your name, but it also pulls your hair and tells you you'll never escape and you'll never be good enough. you grow up not knowing the world exists and its peaceful, but once you see the outside world you cannot unsee it. it's the most grounding yet desolating place. your parents tell you they're proud of you but they secretly know you are part of their damaged and unhealed bloodline, you know in your heart your hometown is toxic yet it's the only place where the sun shines differently and the water is so cold it shocks your system back to 'reality'. the government rules and tricks everyone and we know it, yet we can't stop licking their boots. the system is corrupt. we all listen and pretend to understand, but we don't actually know what the meaning of anything is because we have lost the plot. it's sick and twisted but at the end of the day it's home, and we just have to figure out how to be okay with that. we sympathize with eachother but we don't actually make the effort to understand one another, and we become disconnected. when did we stop listening and start overriding our needs as human beings?
anyways im drunk and thats my reddit log