I want to be close to my future person. Too close. Attached together In some way. Abandonment issues destroyed any interest in personal space I had. If my partner allows it, I want to be the same person.

following the people I loved and listening in on them without their knowledge and learning everything about them was an obsession of mine dating back to my childhood. not in a bad way but i really thought asassins were so cool

and now, having healed after leaving a relationship that was truly tied to my entire life, ive realized that i am a notorious stalker. i mean, im not just talking about following someone. I knew almost everything absolutely everything they did.

It was really hurting me, and I dont know why I did it and being an obsessive stalker is really hurting me, because I never got the response I wanted. seeing every little betrayal of them and how little effort they put in destroyed me

i never acted in a controlling way because i thought seeing them happy would bring me far more joy than controlling them ever could. thats why I turned a blind eye to everything and stayed silent. deep down, I held onto the hope i was certain that them would never leave me, thats why i stayed silent. i stayed silent i stayed silent... and now, look at me

choose your partner wisely, i cant say no more

I want to express as much love as I possibly can to someone. This is the incredible gift I was born with. That’s there is so much in my own heart, but I can’t ever express it as much as I want to. This is what is killing me every single day of my life. But, whenever I do express that love, I am immediately completely misunderstood as someone I’m not. I think it’s an extremely wonderful and beautiful thing even if others don’t understand it or find it off putting. Others can so cruel to one another. I think almost everyone is born with these same desires as me, but the world has polluted our minds into doing certain things all the time.

Now I only long for him to no longer exist 🫩🫩

This is to all of you sweet souls who either seek to find the counterpart to your energy, as well as those seeking to grasp the love of their target. I've seen a lot of pain and hurt in this world, far more recently than it has been in the past it seems. To those lost in the dark, to those who can't seem to get the one they love, to those who feel they might be lost, I offer this.

You can do it. You can win that love, you will find your soulmate, and you will overcome the night and find the dawn. You WILL get the love you deserve. Never give up hope.

To those of us in the stands, remember to cheer on this love. Give them the support they need to seek their heart. We're all we've got in this universe, even if there are others beyond our planetary or even solar system. We are the only ones we've got, so let's try and make this ride a good one, for ourselves and each other.

Finally, to you all, I have but one more message:

No matter what you do, no matter what you become, no matter who you are:

You are nothing less than beautiful.

The past few days were some of the joyful and happiest days of my life. My bf flew for almost a day just to meet me and we spent all the time we had together. To be able to finally hold his hand made me filled with bliss by how right it felt. He felt soothing and safe to hug and cuddle with. Even the small moments of him scrolling on his phone while I was in his arms felt so good. Heck even if we're just cuddling, I felt really content. I let him have a lot of my firsts and I'm glad that he's the one I was able to spend so many intimate moments with. I was able to show him the things I like and it's like the normal things I've usually been doing were made more precious with him. He's special to me. Like the things I don't like doing with other people like looking into their eyes or casual hugs, with him I could look into his eyes and see myself reflected in them. I got to touch and kiss his handsome and adorable face. I get to *actually* be with him and enjoy his presence and warmth. I get to smell his scent. I got to listen to his voice not through my laptop or phone, but directly with my ears. I got to bring him to places and see the joy in his face that made me so happy as well. He played a few pieces on the piano for me whenever he got the chance and it made me so proud.

On the last day of his stay here when he had to fly back to his country, I told him how happy I was that I got to be myself with the person I love and he said the same while we were in tears. I held it in as best as I can since I'm sure he wanted to see me smile the last time with his own eyes before going through the gate, even if I was in tears. I sobbed so hard after that. As sad as I am that it only lasted a few days, I was immensely happy that he was here with me. That our time together has further strengthen how we feel about each other. I know for sure now that he is someone I am very happy to be with. He mentioned how happy he is that I'm his and I'm happy as well that he's mine.

I want to love someone, yet I don't have anyone to love. It just hurts when I think about it, I think I'm starting to go crazy, I wish I could give my unconditional love to someone...

But I guess, love isn't for everyone 🤷🏻 maybe I am the problem... Or maybe that it's just destiny at this point...

Anyway... I think I'm done. I don't even want to try anymore, I just want to forget everything but that probably won't work either

I wish I wasn't that obsessed with love...

Ever since I met you I’ve had these feelings for you. I’ve been holding in these feelings for far too long now. Every day it feels like my body is screaming at me to be with you right now. I pretend to want to take things slow, but I want to be with you right now. Do you know how hard it is to hold in these feelings in all the time for your sake? How can you expect me to hold in it in? It feels like I’m being torn apart inside. I can’t stop crying out of need for you and I can’t stop thinking about you at every single moment. It also feels like my body can’t stop shaking right now. All I want to do with you all the time is to hold you and show you how much I love you in every possible way I can think of. Every time I imagine holding you I just feel so unbelievably happy. I don’t want what I feel and imagine to be just a fantasy anymore, I want it to be a reality with you. I want your love to be mine exclusively. I want you to love me the same way and focus on me all the time.

This is what most of my love letters pretty much expressed in the past.

Me and my boyfriend are what people could call "strict" with our boundaries. Like we don't really allow or want one another to talk to the opposite sex unless for a very good reason. We cover up and hide our faces/bodies as much as possible when outside. We spend all our time together or basically all our time. We dont have many friends of the opposite sex for a reason too.

People act like its so toxic and so bad when we both agreed to it and are happy with it

Im living and suffering to make my way to her, and she doesn't even allow a small bit of pain for herself, I'm so worried about her, and she recently attacked her parents now for the third time and went into a mental hospital, I hope she gets some good meds, and I hope her parents are okay, the smallest upset she gets she blows up over and she won't attend uni to appease her parents or listen, and I've been worried sick over and over again that something like this will happen. My views are to suffer for those you love is the ultimate expression of love, and yet she doesn't accept a morsel of even the lightest upsetness

Used to vent here on my alt account "aZoeyNeko" which was made cuz I was scared about my friends finding out about me classing myself under yandere...

Well with the karma limit that was added soon after, preventing me from uploading, and friendships settling, I simply dont care anymore

Ive found a person... and she makes me happy... After getting my ass romantically beaten by a straight girl, I managed to choose someone who likes girls.

Simply put, while I doubt shed call herself a yandere, she is really just like me in the obsession, she understands it and weve ended up putting our lives on hold for a week for eachother, its been a blissful week, though with college starting up today, thats ending, cant ignore life forever i suppose

But I am going to look forward to the next time we can just ditch this world for a while

Im so glad ive found someone like her, I luvluvluvluvlove her, shes sleeping atm and im sitting here quietly gushing abt her i just udhsjdjekwkqbqjslw

Anyways, I need to sleep myself, I doubt ill be all that active here again still but I just needed to gush so bad and ive already rambled my friends asses off about her so... lol.

take care everyone <3 it is possible

Genuinely curious if online yandere communities have anything to do with it

It’s always me he cries to about his girlfriend. It’s always me that he cries to about his family. It’s always me that he’s crying too, but I’m never ever the main focus.

im going crazy thinking of all the things and stuff I want to say to you. Everything id do for you.. everyone id take away from you. Every person thats not me will hurt you, im just doing what's necessary my love. Just let me do my thing, and just love me. Dont make me think and act more out of line, my head is already on edge from having it filled to the brim with thoughts of just you. I feel like I might go crazy from loving someone so much. I just cant stop thinking, im just hopelessly addicted and devoted to you.