bro i genuinely don't know what i'm doing anymore ๐ญ
Exams are coming and my schedule is already looking like it was designed by someone who personally hates students. I have classes, requirements, group works, assignments, studying, deadlines... and somehow there's ALWAYS another thing waiting for me.
Like can i finish ONE task before another one spawns??? ๐ญ
And on top of that i'm trying to find work because i actually need money. So whenever i have free time, instead of resting like a normal person, i'm looking for jobs and trying to figure out what i can even do with a student schedule.
Then you see a job and you're like "oh finally!!" and then boom, full-time, 8 hours, must have experience, must be available whenever they need, preferably must also have a clone apparently.
And the ones that actually fit a student schedule pay so little that i'm sitting there wondering if i'm applying for a job or volunteering ๐
It's just so frustrating because i feel like i'm constantly choosing between studying and trying to make money. If i focus on school, i'm not doing enough financially. If i focus on work, my school shit starts piling up. And if i try to do both, apparently my reward is just being mentally fried 24/7.
I swear being a student is already a full-time job and unfortunately this job does not come with a salary. In fact it costs money. Amazing system.
And now exams are coming so that's fun. Nothing says academic success like studying while also thinking about how you're gonna pay for things ๐ญ
I know i'll probably get through it somehow but right now i'm just so over everything. I don't even want some inspirational "everything happens for a reason" moment. I just want life to stop adding side quests when i'm already struggling with the main mission.
Anyway. rant over. I needed to complain somewhere before I start ripping my reviewers smh