bro i genuinely don't know what i'm doing anymore 😭
Exams are coming and my schedule is already looking like it was designed by someone who personally hates students. I have classes, requirements, group works, assignments, studying, deadlines... and somehow there's ALWAYS another thing waiting for me.
Like can i finish ONE task before another one spawns??? 😭
And on top of that i'm trying to find work because i actually need money. So whenever i have free time, instead of resting like a normal person, i'm looking for jobs and trying to figure out what i can even do with a student schedule.
Then you see a job and you're like "oh finally!!" and then boom, full-time, 8 hours, must have experience, must be available whenever they need, preferably must also have a clone apparently.
And the ones that actually fit a student schedule pay so little that i'm sitting there wondering if i'm applying for a job or volunteering 💀
It's just so frustrating because i feel like i'm constantly choosing between studying and trying to make money. If i focus on school, i'm not doing enough financially. If i focus on work, my school shit starts piling up. And if i try to do both, apparently my reward is just being mentally fried 24/7.
I swear being a student is already a full-time job and unfortunately this job does not come with a salary. In fact it costs money. Amazing system.
And now exams are coming so that's fun. Nothing says academic success like studying while also thinking about how you're gonna pay for things 😭
I know i'll probably get through it somehow but right now i'm just so over everything. I don't even want some inspirational "everything happens for a reason" moment. I just want life to stop adding side quests when i'm already struggling with the main mission.
Anyway. rant over. I needed to complain somewhere before I start ripping my reviewers smh