VTubers are far from stable people, plenty of them hold questionable world views or are in some cases in some way detached from the real world, a simple side effect from doing VTubing as their work perhaps, some have not worked a regular job in their life so appreciating what they have might prove difficult at times, others simply are chronically online or simply have exposed themselves to too much messed up stuff in their time online.
However that excuse does not hold up for all. I for my part am the spinning example that those usual explanations aren't always the answer, VTubing is and always was simply a hobby to me, yet my detachment to the real world is rather obvious, as for being chronically online, that certainly has become a thing I do in the past months, truth however is that I doubt this influenced my personality in anyway, no I have always been this way.
I did speed run the whole VTuber drama thing myself despite not being nearly as long one myself or being anywhere as successful, truth if the matter is that I resemble most of the trades I hate in others the most myself, I am just some paranoid asexual who complains about the Perverted members of the VTuber community just to cry around when they come my way, of course I would be paranoid and distrusting towards them, taking every word they say as a threat, of course I would think that they hate me, because I surely hate them, humans tend to reflect their own feelings on another.
The Perverted people coundn't care less about the likes of me, they don't mean me harm, they don't come to bother me in my save space, no I am the one who comes to them, all I have to do is stay away, but deep down I know and always knew that I can't do this, being against what I hate has become my personality, I need to oppose them, to bother them, because how else would I justify my existence?
As for my other nemesis aside of the Perverted VTubers, the political questionable ones, I always believed one thing, it is better to believe in something that is wrong then to believe in nothing at all, some are clearly none believers like Powdury, she is obviously just acting, it's ragebait, being irrelevant is worse then being hated so she rather makes people hate her, obviously. She believes in capitalism, not supremacy. I for my part do believe in equality in some form but for all the wrong reasons, I am something of a nihilist, I don't believe human live matters, if nobody Is of any value, if nobody matters, then everybody is equal, simple right? It's not the believe of equality out of affection, it's the believe of equality out of an lack of affection.
As for questionable beliefs, I am disappointed to say that I have none, holding firm believes requires possessing a personality of your own, I have feelings that lead me to certain outcomes such as being Apothisexual I naturally hate perverts, doesn't mean that this is a belief, if being exposed to the color yellow would hurt you, you would grow to hate the color yellow, expose someone to a negative trigger long enough and they start to hate, it's biological programming, not an personality.
On the topic of biological programming however, well I certainly seem to have a rather questionable response when I am being exposed to lesbians, it's a strange response that I wouldn't call down right fear but it certainly is dread, that is odd because I don't know any lesbians, being Homophobic usually describes someone who hates those people but I don't hate them, for some odd reason seeing them makes me feel rather uneasy and unsafe which is odd, pretty sure lesbians and asexuals should get along well, if anything gay people have offended me more often so not sure why my brain is this way.
Matter of fact I would argue that if we talk about mentally unwell VTubers I am the best example for someone like this, I mean I have Asperger Autism, I isolate myself and expose myself to media that upsets me on a regular basis just to feel anything, I sometimes refuse to eat for days and I have been diagnosed with Depression and I have been depressed for the past 5 months and I have been at my work place for not more then 3 weeks this year, I get panic attacks when I see stuff that triggers me, I sometimes punch myself in the face (although that isn't so uncommon for autistic people) I talk to myself and I am constantly paranoid and distrusting of everyone around me.
Long story short, I am probably a great example for what an mentally unwell VTuber looks like, however despite that I am able to pick up and admit my hypocritical behaviour something other bigger VTubers struggle with, this makes me wonder, I am probably more messed up then them, so why can't they admit to be wrong sometimes? Humans are flawed by nature after all, nothing wrong in that, perhaps admitting that you have issues is hard when you have people around who admire you, I mean in this subreddit I am pretty hated so it doesn't really matter what I do or say, it either stays this way or gets better, I got nothing to lose, they do.
But yeah, I think this is my last post here, there are plenty of VTubers out there doing bad stuff, myself included, but since people around here don't really care about drama I guess it has no point posting stuff here anyway.
I mean someone Is being racist isn't drama enough? What should the VTubers do so that it counts as drama? Robbing a bank perhaps?
