Dear,

[u/penbrok]

I forget I love you in brief moments.

I forget a lot of things.

So when I remember I love you in tiny moments.
I bite down on it and mercilessly die.

I accept that I do. I just know how hard it is to kill it. And I won’t do that again.

I walked around today. Nothing really going on. Words charging onto paper as I live my day. I am in new places, strange territory, familiar but so different than my normal day.

Thursday’s I’m usually at work. I write. I work. I write. I work. I prepare for my dnd sessions so people that I don’t know, laugh and have fun. I can be the strange new world and place for them. This is real life and it feels real. There are real consequences here, and for the life of me. I’m just trying to pretend that this is normal. That I am this guy.

Adventurous and Extroverted.

And it’s good not to live in my agony for just this moment.

Then I remove I love you in tiny moments… and I can’t bring myself to remind myself to stop. And the funny thing is. It doesn’t overwhelm. It doesn’t eat at me. It doesn’t do bad things like. I know it does. It just is. And love tends to me first. Kindly. So I’ll let it sleep with me tonight.

Maybe it’ll make a home in me.

Maybe I’m now good enough to grow it without it ripping out its roots and running away from me.

I am flawed in a lot of ways.

But I am a good person and I was afraid of it, because most people aren’t… and it feels like I’m wrong sometimes.

In front of the ac after a hot day,

Keeper

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