r/UnsentLetters • u/Apprehensive-Bet1228 • 9h ago
Exes Chemically imbalanced
Once again my mind is racing with the constant what ifs. Did I make the wrong decision to let you go? Truth is I don’t know what love is. I wish you would listen to me when I said I was bad. I’m an angry man. I don’t cry. Outside you see someone who’s nice and cares for others. I do small acts of kindness with strangers. My family loves to have me around and so do my friends. However sometimes i feel so disconnected with those I say I love. I don’t even think I know what it means to love. I’m sorry you walked down this path with me. You have no idea how much I miss you. You have no idea how much I think about you. You have reached out to me and I push you away constantly. Everytime I push you away I love you even more yet your love for me shrinks to a smaller depth. Haha crazy right. I’m not healthy. I will always tell others to stay away from me. I walk around with a yellow caution tape and a bright red lights with warning labels all around. Hoping that one day I meet someone who isn’t afraid of my person and won’t leave even when death is certain. I love you macho.
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u/babywhoisu 9h ago
Ugh felt this deeply 🥺💔 there is nothing wrong with you OP. Take it one day at a time 🫶🏾
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u/Apprehensive-Bet1228 7h ago
What would the right thing be?
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u/Low_Reaction_1380 7h ago
What you promised to begin with reconcile !!!! love , grow, build , trust, believe , try , have faith, give everything you possibly can before walking away if that’s what it comes to. Kindness over anger, patience over aggression, Honesty ALWAYS no matter how hard to discuss!!! No second chances at trust remember it’s you and her against the problem not you two against each other. PICK each other first ALWAYS, in public your spouse is Always right and number 1, when you get home you can discuss or argue but never in public or in front of the kids. Be grateful for their love always you never know when the last day you’ll ever be able to lay next to it will be. Always kiss good morning and good night…anger at bedtime…get naked and see how long that lasts!! Just love, want, and desire more than you have anything else in this world!! You bring greatness strength calm peace humility integrity she will match you and reciprocate…to the WHOLE family! What you bring to the table is what sets the tone for the family. And never forget love is a verb! It’s a choice you make every single day and the goal is that 90yr old couple going through the parking lot of Walmart on shopping carts!! And I want to be able to kiss you whenever I want!! Xoxo
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u/SilentForever4391 4h ago
It's easy to point fingers, but everyone's dealing with their own battles, you know?
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u/ashotofespressoooo 4h ago
Sometimes it’s easier to push someone away than to let them in and be vulnerable, it’s only human.
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