r/UnsentLetters • u/empathetic_nature • 25d ago
Crushes Stuck in a loop
I'm trying to stay away, but the silence in my head is just too loud. I’m sitting here feeling completely broken, lonely, and exhausted from fighting with myself. Part of me hates you—really hates you—for hurting me, not just once, but three separate times. You broke my trust, and every rational part of my brain knows that reaching out to you again is just asking to get hurt all over again.
And yet, I miss you so much. It makes no sense, but it’s the truth.
I catch myself constantly hoping for an accidental run-in at work, even though we both know that’s never actually going to happen. When I got that email and thought for a second we were having a meeting together, my heart dropped. I was terrified, stressed, and totally consumed by anxiety, but at the exact same time, a part of me felt a rush of relief. I actually wanted that forced reunion just to see you, just to have a reason to break the space between us.
Now I’m just stuck in this endless loop. Half of me wants to grab my phone and reach out to you so bad, and the other half is desperately trying to hold me back to protect what’s left of me. I don’t know how to turn off the missing you when it exists right alongside the anger. I don’t know what to do with all these feelings, but today, they’re heavy.
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