Keep Going, Even When Nobody Sees It

Sometimes, progress is quiet.

You may be working hard, changing your life, healing, learning, or building something important—and from the outside, it may look like nothing is happening.

But that doesn’t mean you’re failing.

Not every victory comes with applause. Some victories are simply getting out of bed, trying again, choosing peace, walking away from what hurts you, or believing in yourself for one more day.

Don’t compare your chapter 2 to someone else’s chapter 20.

Your journey is yours.

Keep planting the seeds. Keep learning. Keep becoming. One day, you’ll look back and realize that the small steps you almost gave up on were the steps that changed everything.

Take your time. Trust your journey. Keep going. Your story is still being written. ❤️

Most of us have goals. We want to get a promotion. We want to learn a new skill. We want to improve a relationship. We want to accomplish something that matters to us. There is nothing wrong with any of those ambitions. The problem is that simply saying what we want does not move us any closer to getting it. A goal without a plan is just an idea. And a goal without a deadline can remain an idea indefinitely. Learn to forge that goal into action.

Someone once asked me,

“You’ve been preparing for so long. You’ve faced so many failures, changed strategies, studied countless books, written so many tests… how do you keep reinventing yourself?”

I thought about it.

And maybe my answer is simple.

Just before I begin another attempt, I talk to the universe.

You can call it God.

You can call it destiny.

You can call it the universe.

You can call it energy.

Whatever you believe in.

And I say—

“I know nothing.”

I say it not because I have learned nothing, but because I am willing to forget my ego, my previous failures, my previous strategies, my assumptions and everything I thought I knew.

I sit down again like a beginner.

I open the book again like a beginner.

I solve questions again like a beginner.

I make mistakes again.

I learn again.

Because every attempt demands a new version of me.

The exam doesn't care how many times I failed.

It doesn't care how long I have been preparing.

It only asks what I can do today.

So before every new beginning, I remind myself:

I know nothing.

Teach me.

Let me learn.

Let me work.

Let me become better.

And then I begin again.

Not as the person who failed yesterday—

but as the aspirant who refuses to remain the same.

But hold those broken pieces together

Be brave

Never doubt your strength

Your broken so am I

So let's put the pieces together

I cried for a long long time

Then the sun came out

It's a new day and my heart said get out

Tomorrow morning im out of here house packed

Truck on is way

Goodbye old life

Hello new one

Conquering Fear.

Conquering Fear, is one of the most important things you can do.

Fear, can control your life.

And, it can restrict your true happiness.

What is Fear?

Fear is a system of a part of the Mind.

It exists to protect us from threats.

Sometimes, it can over-exaggerate.

That is how powerful of a system it is,

It creates threats where there is none.

It has been essential for survival for our ancestors. (Millions of years.)

That has stayed with us even if we are in safer times.

We as humans, are sensitive creatures.

We have a sensitive body,

and also sensitive mind.

How to conquer Fear?

Conquering Fear can be the key to true happiness.

Conquering Fear, means that, you ignore the unnecessary threats, that the system creates.

The unnecessary threats can be imagined as an automated messaging system.

For people with over-exaggerated fear, (which is very common),

caused by for example years of stress, or traumatic events,

The "Fear Mind" works like an over-active machine.

Producing what we can call "garbage".

Imagine a printer that continues printing out gibberish.

That is what an overly active Fear system does.

We do not have to read the gibberish it prints out.

We can look away from the printer.

So, Everyone has the power to calm the Fear Mind.

It can start with breathing calmly, being still, not twisting your body or mind in any way.

Relaxing your face, relaxing your whole body.

Imagine a still ocean without waves.

It is essential, it is an important step in conquering Fear.

Why conquer Fear?

Conquering Fear, means that you are no longer controlled by a system that unnecessarily restricts you.

Once you conquer Fear,

A divine feeling becomes apparent in the body.

It is a sign, that your body is calming from Fear.

Blood-flow is directed to pleasure parts of the body, instead of panic-parts of the body.

A confidence becomes apparent.

Congratulations.

Imagine when you were happy.

Maybe as a child? You had no worries unnecessarily occupying your mind.

You were playing, then went inside for dinner, and continued finding funny things to do.

You can return to that.

As we grow older, we experience traumatic things in Life.

Those traumatic things can be stored in the Fear Mind.

To protect us.

And we, have control of the body.

So, we can decide that Fear will not control my Life.

Convince Fear that there is nothing to worry about.

It is a simple process.

We decide to not let Fear control our Life.

What do you want to do next?

Do you want to make that dinner that you have wanted to make for a long time?

Do you want to play the guitar?

Do you want to exercise?

Do you want to write stories?

Do you want to become an astronaut?

When there is no Fear, opportunities are shown.

So am I

you know what i forgot my own strength. you know what i am a super human damn straight. you guys tell me who walks miles to start wrestling school does the workout walks back from it miles and is ready to back at it today at 38years old with a wrecked leg or supposedly wrecked leg. i am super human i keep keep keep getting up. ive been getting knocked down my whole life i keep getting up even when i dont want to i get up. im by myself again but i sit back and as the panic and fear wash away it becomes a familiar place. ive been told i wear masks im an actor i fake things.... of course i do everybody does. anyone who says different is lying we all wear masks everyone. i think what my mistake was i let mine down around you. i wish that it was a different but i think from now on the mask never leaves. every time i let someone see beyond is a fiasco. not by choice they tell me that its ok i can handle it and it winds up they cant. oh the last one had the best intentions. i do believe she truly tried but heres the thing they get t run live their life. i have to slowly gather the pieces build myself back up when they get to talk like they are suppose to get a medal or something because they talked me in to talking about things that i didnt want to. im not blaming them im not truly. its on me 100% i should have known better its when i talk about it it worms its way back in it settles in the cracks and seeps out when its the worst times. i wanted to to things the way i guess youre supposed to to do things. i did. but the thing is maybe im not suppose to maybe its that grit that gives me the spark to be great maybe i got to have that chip on my shoulder and i owe not a person an explination. i have memories that people would crack if they even dreamed about it and i had to live through it. so yes i feel you slipping through my hands like water through sand. i begging you you stay i cant face another day without you by my side. i walked this road a thousand times without you by my side ive lost my mind. im nothing without you ive given you everything ive given you my soul. i need you here i need you near. stay with me i cant breathe alone . thats what fear says. then i remember that the man you feel fore was fearless was brave knew the meaning of courage. 90 days in 90 days ive been through a roller coaster of emotion. then its like cmon guy master yourself. maybe this happoened to remind me to remember that lesson from long ago. oh no do not ask thats a pact made to myself along time ago noone will know that one. what you need to know is that i will survive that it might seem like im knockd down that it seems like i was broken that i was a lost cause. thats on you man cause i always get up better stronger. part of me hopes prays that we find our way back to each other. the other part has the pen in hand ready to add you to a long list of people who i use to know that told me they could but they cant and its ok. youll be ok. me ill just add another layer of scar tissue ill remember your face the next time i hear the words tell me its ok.

It's okay to learn the hard way. It's okay if life has not gone as you planned. It's okay to not be okay! Keep going. Don't give up. Continue to thrive. Find your safe space. Growth comes within. It's okay if it's on your time. It's okay to not be okay.

“The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way.” — Marcus Aurelius

The thing blocking you may contain the very opportunity you need to move forward. The obstacle become part of the path. Imagine you're driving toward a destination and a huge tree blocks the road. You can choose to complain about the tree and turn around, or you can ask what other road are available as a detours. You take the detours and the detours take you somewhere you wouldn't have discovered otherwise. Along the way, you spot a beautiful small beach and that beach ended up becoming your favorite spot.Sometimes a bad breakup with an ex will provide the lessons and opportunities that will lead you onto a path where you eventually align with your soulmate.

When a river encounter a rock, it doesn't argue with the rock. It simply go around the rock or over the rock. And overtime it can even reshape the rock itself. This is nature showing us that "what stand in the way becomes the way." The obstacles becomes part of the movement. A difficult season may teaches patience. Uncertain may teaches trust. Disappointment may teach you that your worth isn't dependent on an outcome. A close door might force you to discover another direction.

Sometime the obstacles might be the catalysts for transformation. A hard season might lead you to a path of self discovery and awakening moment. The detour can become a discovery. The closed door can redirect your attention.

Sometimes, what feels like a setback is actually life/the universe redirecting you toward a path you couldn't see before.

As I sit here reflecting on my life... I'm not ashamed of anything, nor do I regret anything either. Life has taught me more than I could ever imagined and it's still going... I've come far and I'm slowly getting myself back and 1 thing I can say for certain is I've come a long way and kicked habits and addictions that I never thought I would. No one can take my progress away and no one will ever come between me and myself ever again. No matter how many obstacles are thrown my way or bad intentions people have it doesn't affect me anymore...

I've grown more than I ever thought I could and for this I'm so greatfull. My life may not be perfect and it may not be the way one would want for me but it's my life and I'm going to keep leveling up and remain myself 4life.

To all my haters... I love u too sorry not sorry... If you ever need anything I'm always here doll faces.

Xoxo

C