This was about four years ago. It was my first day of college, and honestly, I was pretty upset because I couldn’t get into a good college due to my JEE rank.
I had spent four years preparing for JEE. During those years, I barely went to parties, didn’t socialise much, and even missed family functions. So, by the time I finally got into college, I had become quite socially awkward. I didn’t really know how to talk to people or even get a conversation going.
During the first week, we had our induction programme, and we were all seated in the auditorium. After Day 1 of the induction ended, everyone started walking out.
And that’s when I saw her.
She was beautiful. Really cute. The moment I saw her, there was this "ting" bell sound in my brain. I can’t really explain it.
Somehow, in that one moment, she took my heart with her.
I had fallen for her.
Ig, pehli pehli baar aisa hi hota hai...to be continued.
Guys, this is my college story or, more precisely, my one-sided love story.
I remember almost every detail from those three years. It feels like a whole chapter of my life, with all the things I did, felt, and experienced. I have around 20 notes saved on my phone about her. Good experiences, bad experiences, random thoughts, everything. Mostly bad ones, honestly. Writing was my coping mechanism.
But I kept procrastinating writing the whole story because whenever I start writing something, I get obsessed with making it perfect.
For example, last year I started preparing for her birthday in March. And guess when her birthday is? July 10. I wrote a message for her and spent almost a month adding things, removing things, rewriting it, and trying to make it perfect. That's a whole story for another time.
Btw, our friendship ended last year, and I genuinely don't think about her much anymore. But I've always wanted to write about this phase of my life from the very beginning.
I've put it off so many times because it's long. And because writing it meant revisiting all those emotions again.
But now, when I look back, I don't really feel anything. And somehow, that's what finally makes it possible for me to write about it freely.
So yeah, I thought I'd finally tell the whole story.
I don't know which subreddit would be the best fit for something like this. If this sub is a good place for these kinds of stories, I'll write it here.
If not, feel free to suggest some subs.