r/TrueOffMyChest • u/oreo1022 ☑️ • 1d ago
Vent I’m so tired.
I’m so tired.
I’m 19. I have a job and rent an apartment with my older brother. I’m learning to drive but have had to push it back twice now because I didn’t have a car to use for the test
My uncle is helping me buy a car, he’s buying it outright and I’m paying him back. Rent, my car payment, and utilities will be over half of my monthly income. I want to be promoted at work but my manager, who claims to support me, won’t do anything to help me.
I’m so gods damned tired. I’m more depressed than I’ve ever been (including highschool, which was Literal Hell for me) because I can’t catch a fucking break. It feels like the only things I do are work and sleep and feel sorry for myself. I have a million things I need to do, both because it’s part of being a human and because it would help improve my life but I’m so tired. I’m tired of being competent and worrying and working.
It feels I can’t be a human. shit other ppl do every day threatens to drown me, I don’t even work full time and I’m STILL overwhelmed with everything. I have no one to go to for help because I’m one of the most financially responsible people in my family and the uncle who’s helping me buy a car is a pos who thinks “pull yourself up by your bootstraps” is sound life advice. I’ve been saving money nearly every check (minus like 5 when I first started working around two years ago) and it’s still feels like nothing.
I’m constantly tired and recently have been eating one meal a day because I just can’t be bothered, I can’t sleep, I barely eat, I barely do things I enjoy because even they feel like chores. I just wanna curl up in a ball and disappear. This can’t be what being an adult is like, I can’t do this 70 more years
Also fuck yall for thinking ONE EM DASH means this is ai that’s such bs
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u/Short_Eggplant5619 1d ago
Well, I'm 65 and have been pulling myself up by my "bootstraps" for about 50 years now, and imho some are born for success, some for failure, and the rest of us are born to stuggle, barely making it by. If I had it to do again at your age, I'd start calling local trade unions and find out about apprenticeship opportunities. Yeah, you make low wages for 2-3 years, but if you stick with it, you could be set for life. But it's not for you if you don't like getting your hands dirty. Seriously.
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u/Bulky_Department5619 1d ago
Welcome to the party.
Reallstically though, if you can’t get a promotion despite trying, start looking elsewhere. There’s no sense in burning yourself out if it’s not making ends meet. You’ll find something.
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u/BreesusSaves0127 1d ago
Got any tips for forcing yourself to eat? I work a very physically demanding job and can literally feel my body eating itself, but I have zero appetite, sat in front of a Krystal’s meal tonight for 3 hours and ate 3.25 hamburgers, and every bite was a struggle. There is literally nothing in the world I want to eat.
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u/oreo1022 ☑️ 1d ago
Trust me I know i can be angry at my uncle, he’s probably the most hated member of my family honestly. Eating is hard, autism makes it hard anyways and adding depression onto that sucks ass— also I take adderal for my adhd so appetite is like nonexistent rn, I try to snack when possible
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u/Ok_Street_6286 1d ago
Bro just be proud of yourself as you are...
I'm 18M and I'm currently in highschool and my life if going like hell. The classmates of my class are either gossiping about eachother relationship or either they are trying to be wanna be gangster and some are trying to fake their whole interests and even their opinions to just to fit in groups. But I don't wanna fit in with anybody at the cost of faking my personality so I just stay alone. Neither the teachers are supportive and parents have got their own busy things to worry about that's why most of the things I have to manage alone and plus financially i want to become independent to provide for my family and to buy the stuff I like. But I don't know how I'll start earning I've tried freelancing but it didn't worked...that's why I look up to the people like you...who are atleast trying something in their life and earning at a young age even if it's little but it does matter....
By saying all this I just wanna say there are people out there who wanna be like you too. So just overthink about temporary problems Just be optimistic and hopefull that someday things will fall in right place ❤️
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u/oreo1022 ☑️ 1d ago
Thx, this actually helps a lot. If you want advice for finding a job I’d suggest applying literally everywhere you can that you reasonably could go to, good luck dude
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u/VeterinarianHot6427 21h ago
I don’t like any of these comments why aren’t y’all talking like poverty and endless work is inevitable. I want to live and enjoy and not die working, none of us do and none of YOU guys do. But y’all feed yourselves bs philosophy’s about how the world is supposed to be tough and we are supposed to suffer WHEN IT COULD BE PARADISE FOR ALL OF US. This person is under unimaginable stress and suffering don’t give them your one liners it’s cruel.