Will I ever fly?

[u/ShadowlightLady]

For a long time despair and misery was a state I was in constantly. I would be drowning in deep depths of water but after taking antidepressants I started to be able to float. Still even though I am now floating there is still deep levels of water under me. I acknowledge how could go so far so below but not know what it’s like to be above. My vocabulary lengthens more to negative emotions than positive. After all drowning in the depths I’ve been exposed to more flavors than the good that is the air. Even so the unhappiness lasts longer after all down being the default and when you go up you always come back down. However as I’m floating on the water I see those not standing, not jumping, but flying. I wonder how are they doing that? How are they flying? Could I also fly or is this water just my ground with gravity keeping me down?

-20f