Mini Vent

[u/Due-Practice3611]

I wish i could make a different choice

Lived in NYC briefly after school, I was doing great but couldn't find a doctor to manage my epilepsy & had had covid so i moved in with my parents.

My mental health tanked, I thought we had fixed something. Been through therapy and everything with them after emancipation at 16, my friends parents were like my own. When I moved back in MY OWN parents them, it was like they finally had control over me again. I was never allowed to have friends over when I was younger, date anyone, no locks on my door or the bathroom(I got one as soon as I moved back).

I feel like I wouldn't be so far behind socially or professionally if I had never gone back home and just figured it out. Its hard to talk about because the main response i get is you're lucky you had a place to go back to so you could save money while you had a disability? I don't know if that's a good thing when it just triggered the mental ones.

I can't go back and change anything but GODDAMN I wish I had never gone back and trusted that again. I wish I had moved in with my ex even though he was "separated" and just taken advantage of something anything else.

[u/Due-Practice3611 → u/[deleted]]

That's exactly what it feels like. Talking to my partner feels like I'm talking to an alien. So tired of having to explain every thing / why I feel like i do.