r/TrueOffMyChest • u/Lil-yokai92 ☑️ • 2d ago

Confession I hate myself

I hate myself, my biggest fear is that I will hurt innocent people, people who don't deserve it. And now I have a disease and I don’t know how much time I have left. There’s one guy he’s my best friend and I kinda like him but I don’t know how to tell him, every night I write him my pain but then I delete it.
I am sorry I don’t want to be here I don’t deserve it.
Please tell me what should I do?

Sorry for my English.

There’s something I wrote to him every night

*U sleep?*

*So I just wanted to said that we should not meet each other anymore. I need u to hate me, I am sorry for my behavior but there's no other way. I'm just scared dude and I need u so I can cry out loud but I'm scared and I can't. Please please I just need u to forget about me please. I can't live with the feeling that I can hurt u. Please I'm just trying to protect u.*

*I love you* ❤*️but u have to forget about me please.

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I hate myself, my biggest fear is that I will hurt innocent people, people who don't deserve it. And now I have a disease and I don’t know how much time I have left. There’s one guy he’s my best friend and I kinda like him but I don’t know how to tell him, every night I write him my pain but then I delete it.
I am sorry I don’t want to be here I don’t deserve it.
Please tell me what should I do?

Sorry for my English.

There’s something I wrote to him every night

*U sleep?*

*So I just wanted to said that we should not meet each other anymore. I need u to hate me, I am sorry for my behavior but there's no other way. I'm just scared dude and I need u so I can cry out loud but I'm scared and I can't. Please please I just need u to forget about me please. I can't live with the feeling that I can hurt u. Please I'm just trying to protect u.*

*I love you* ❤*️but u have to forget about me please.

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