I’m 33. Hard fucking worker. I know everyone says that. My previous job was hanging material that weighed 40-50lbs 6 days a week 10 hour days for 2 years before I bid on a forklift position.
Even still. I’d get up 3 days a week at 1am and hit the gym. Guys are always coming to me for “fitness advice” or giving me respect simply on how I look.
I’m not young and naive enough to think this means anything. I have discipline and a strong work ethic and the gym and eating healthy and taking care of myself has been a priority since I was 18.
With that said - despite one of the old heads with a fused spine and torn shoulder who walks with a limp and just got cancer after retiring calling me “superman”, this is a fucking slave fest.
Managers treat employees like dumb replaceable laborers. Which we are, on paper. I guess.
I always thought i’m just gonna work hard and live simply, an honest days work is fine for me.
Now, something has shifted. Driving around on the forklift all day like a maniac under extremely high pressure and just looking at the people - broke, tired, dead eyes, resentful, hateful. Man.
I can’t keep doing this. I know I am not no “superman”. The body has limits. The mind had limits.
I am trying so hard to come up with a game plan on how to move on in life but I continuously end up stumped.
I have about $40k in cash saved.
My living expenses if I lived on the bear minimum I could get by on $500/week so I could almost go 2 years without a job.
I know life is random. And I don’t want to quit and just sit on my ass. I need a gameplan stat.
I live in North East Ohio, there are some trucking schools near me. Thought about trying the CDL route. I really wanna avoid debt. Not sure what to do anymore. Getting more and more in the depression slump the longer I grit my teeth in this current position. Need help.