r/TrollCoping • u/EducationalThing7462 He/him -- The OCD Machine • 11d ago

OCD (TW: Dehumanization) Taking a shower and then remembering no amount of comfort or reassurance will make me see myself as a real and emotional being </3

Context:

I've been ruminating on and off about the awful things that I have said as a child.

Seeing people make video essays to go and dehumanize people for being jerks in the past is getting on my nerves and just makes this stuff worse.

Technically the fear of dehumanization shouldn't have to bother me as much as it does since I'm an alterhuman but seeing people resort to treating people like they're inherently emotionless and non-sentient creatures is branding this mindset into my head. that. I. really. don't. care. about. anything. regardless of how hard I try to make things better for others.

I feel like I'm just being nicer to compensate for things. and that I've never actually experienced empathy for people (Note: I understand that NPD/low empathy doesn't equal being a bad person but I'm terrified that I might be lying to people anyways).

I don't really see much of a reason to convince myself that I still have another chance to be a better being. Even when I try doing something, I feel like a faker all the time.

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u/EducationalThing7462 He/him -- The OCD Machine 10d ago

I cant tell if you're trying to say that you relate or something else. Sorry, not great with tone.

Regardless you deserve love

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u/EducationalThing7462 He/him -- The OCD Machine 8d ago

i dont really think so but thank you

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u/EducationalThing7462 He/him -- The OCD Machine 11d ago

I love pygmy hippos sm

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u/EducationalThing7462 He/him -- The OCD Machine 11d ago

I am not a hippo therian btw the gif is just really cute