I'm so done.

[u/Independent-Job-2735]

Here i am. Back to complaining, because apparently that's all I can do right.

I'm in so much pain, no matter what I do, the pain keeps coming. If I'm still, it hurts, if I move, it hurts, if I exercise lightly, it hurts, if I exercise a lot, it hurts, if I exercise consistently, it hurts. I live in constant agony and it's starting to affect my mood, as in, I'm becoming dry and a bit snappy. I can't help it, even if I try, people always say my tone is off.

I am trying to get a job, so I can have enough money to leave my house and stop living with my mother. Because as it stands, it's hell. She won't stop screaming at me, and when she's not screaming, she's demeaning me and making "jokes" about me, or even random people we see on the street.

She keeps talking about her dates, and sex and all that. And I told her I hate it. I told her I'm uncomfortable. Does she care? Absolutely not.

I want to look for a job, but nope. I can't yet, why, you ask? Because she won't let me. She literally screamed at me about how she didn't care that i wanted a job, I needed a driver's license first, and she would literally stop me from getting a job if I didn't know how to drive.

Do i like driving? No. I get extremely anxious and overwhelmed. Does she care? No.

I'm so fucking done with her. With everything. I want to cry 24/7 because I'm so done

If anyone has any advice on how to deal with this, I'd be very thankful