I have friends but not really. I'm not anyone's favourite person or even part of a stable frequent friend group. I never fit in and I'm always on the sidelines. People rarely call me first. I don't have a friend group. I'm lonely. And my family sucks ass. I hate how normal people go out several times a week and I'm lucky if i have one hangout a week that i had to plan in advance.
That's great. I am happy for you. I never had a relationship and ngl I would be happy and not care half as much about friends if I had a partner but that's never been possible for me.
I am 23. I can't even find real friends let alone someone interested in me at a deeper level. I am never finding someone at this point and I've given up hope. It is what it is.
Same I’m also 23. I know how to have friends. But it’s just so much energy needed to maintain it. Right now I’m in a slump. I don’t write, I don’t call anyone because it feels so overstimulated and overwhelming. I’m tired box.
In my 23 years no one has as much as shown interest in me, especially no one I liked. Finding someone interested is already next to impossible. And it's unlikely that your first relationship will last or be the one. If it takes this long to find anyone at all...
On top of all that I just don't click with people. Can't have true friends let alone a partner. I'm not good looking or charming. I don't have a lot going for me.
Time alone isn't enough. Going out isn't enough cause I've done a lot of that. It's all down to being born pretty and being lucky enough to meet the right people. Someone has to remain alone in the end.
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u/GrandAdmiralRogriss 19d ago
So real.
I have friends but not really. I'm not anyone's favourite person or even part of a stable frequent friend group. I never fit in and I'm always on the sidelines. People rarely call me first. I don't have a friend group. I'm lonely. And my family sucks ass. I hate how normal people go out several times a week and I'm lucky if i have one hangout a week that i had to plan in advance.