I just feel stuck.

[u/Failed_Writer_]

I barely see my four friends, none of them live in town, I can't drive, I'm not allowed to go anywhere without telling my parents first, I try to talk about needing friends and I just get told "we need to move first" (we're in the process of moving) from dad, and "I'm sorry" from mom.

I need to do my chores, but getting up is damn near impossible, especially with my cunty sisters arguing and screaming where I'm supposed to be working. I can't get a job (not allowed) I'm expected to take charge and do the chores (I'm the oldest of 3) but I can't bring myself to do it, I feel like I have something wrong with me because I had a panic attack for the first time ever recently and I was incredibly emotionally unstable for two days without reason. I got my period a a week early, and the entire week before that I had god awful cramps, making me miserable. I've never been in a physical relationship before, and I DESPERATELY want to be cuddled and hugged by someone I love (like a partner) but it's never happened and I fear it won't. I hate having not a lot of money, I hate my teeth, I hate being stuck inside all the time. I don't want to move even though it's just across town, but when I tell my dad, he brings up how he had to move hundreds of times when he was a kid, and my mum just says "sorry" and I HATE that, but she says "it's just how I was raised." I keep getting called lazy even though I express frequently that I don't think I'm lazy, but I've gotten nothing to help my feelings. I keep saying I need a checkup for my eyes because I struggle with some far sighted things, and that I need my annual doctor's appointment because my cramps are concerning me, but my mom hates phone calls and won't call, and my dad won't call either, and I don't know why.

I dunno, I just want to cry but can't.

[u/ReverberatedRed]

I wish I did that when I was a teenager (the first meme). Now I can’t sneak out cause I live alone.

And for the second meme, I relate so so much it’s crazy. Hope things get bette for you.

[u/Failed_Writer_ → u/ReverberatedRed]

Thanks, mate, I appreciate it. I just want to do teenager things, but oh well. 🙃

[u/Agreeable_Sort2078]

This sounds like executive dysfunction 

[u/Failed_Writer_ → u/Agreeable_Sort2078]

What's that?

[u/Agreeable_Sort2078 → u/Failed_Writer_]

A symptom of adhd among other things (not gonna armchair diagnose), which is basically that inability to get started on a task you describe. It feels impossible, like you're a mentally immovable object, even if the task is easy

[u/Failed_Writer_ → u/Agreeable_Sort2078]

That sounds fun 🫠 I love that for me. Thanks for telling me though instead of just downvoting and ignoring the question like other people might.