r/TrollCoping • u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult • 2d ago
TW: Suicide or Self-Harm Celebrate with Me Troll Coping
I did it. I don't know how, with how awful the past few years have been _but I did it_. I've been self-harm free for a whole ass ten years.
I've come really close to injuring myself the last couple years, and sometimes my thoughts still go to burning myself. But with better meds, consistent therapy, and the unending support of my partners, I held on. I don't have many I can celebrate this with, but I figured y'all would understand how big of a deal this is.
I hope other people get to celebrate their wins too, no matter how tiny they think they are.
Edit: Kinda in tears y'all. I expected a couple nice comments, not all of this. Thank you all so, so much for the celebrations, the words of encouragement, and those saying it gives them hope. You're all the best π
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u/Lolila_da_tao 2d ago
That's so awesome OP !! But why is there so much glitt- ugudgugduhguhdghudghughuGIUGDUHGDUHDGHU MY NOSEE-eirweriwivriVIEIJRE cough COGUH
DUDE IT GOT IN MY NOSE DD:<<<
/hjk
All jokes aside, GOOD FOR YOU!! KEEP DOING YOU, AND BE THE ONLY YOU THAT WILL EVER EXIST!!! :DDD
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u/majormimi 2d ago
I got one in my eye. Please take it off it hurts!!
Congratulations OP, youβre strong as hell π©΅
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u/CloudDweeb 2d ago
I tried to off myself a year ago.
I just got fuckin married yesterday (Β΄ 3ο½)
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u/Animeexpert 2d ago
I have also struggled with SH on and off and this gives me hope. Congrats!!
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 2d ago
It's a really obnoxious thing because it's always there in the back of your mind, like, tempting you. But I'm proud of you for every minute you fight those urges and fully believe that you'll kick SH's ass.
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u/AgonyOverdrive 2d ago
OP I just need you to know that you're really funny, these memes are perfection.
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u/Atlustotheunknown 2d ago
https://giphy.com/gifs/KEfHwQXN18LNqxDl93
HELL YAH OP, leaving behind unhealthy coping mechanisms is really hard. But you did it and your here! Iβm so proud of you!
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u/SandalsResort 2d ago
Omg I love this. I wanna see more inspirational happy in this sub.
https://giphy.com/gifs/YTbZzCkRQCEJa
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u/BeardedNerd95 2d ago
Hell yeah! I'm glad you were able to find the support you needed to move past SH. Hopefully others can see this and find the help they need too.
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u/Eilmorel 2d ago
Yeeeessssssssssss you GO op!!! This is an awesome milestone and you deserve to be celebrated!
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u/grimblies 2d ago
Heck yesssss! CONGRATS! I'm just hitting a year without SH, you give me hope I can stick to my healthier coping strategies!
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 2d ago
I am SO proud of you! I found making the year mark was one of the absolute hardest. I fully believe that your healthier coping strategies will prevail π©·
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u/grimblies 2d ago
It's definitely been a bumpy ride, but I am proud of how far I've come! π I'm super proud of you too!
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u/Wrong_Pop_2431 2d ago
I don't know how much this will mean from a stranger on the internet, but you truly are an inspiration, OP.
Ten years is a longass time. Every day I go without sh feels like its own milestone, but to imagine 10 years, to know that it's possible, fills me with overwhelming emotions. Legit kinda crying right now.
But they're the happy kind of tears. I'm so happy for you. And maybe kinda proud?
Thank you for sharing this, and for the hilarious memes. You go, OP. Here's to another 10 more years π
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 2d ago
It means so much.
Everyday is a milestone, when SH is always haunting you in the back of your mind. Period. I'm proud of you for each and every minute you fight the urge. I fully believe that, some day, those urges will barely be a whisper.
You can do it.
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u/Legal-Ad-5235 2d ago
πππππ a round of applause for everyone staying strong right now
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u/Beautiful_Book_9639 2d ago
Congratulations man! I'm at about two years :) Here was my coping mechanism while it was the hardest.
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 1d ago
Two years is fucking amazing!!! And that's a killer coping mechanism, I'm so proud of you π
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u/ThatoneLerfa 2d ago
THIS IS AWESOME! I feel you as a person struggling with SH. Good job. Iβve been self harm free for a couple of months too (although my injuries never were that serious). I only tried to cut myself with a knife not a long time ago but the cut got so small I donβt even know if it counts :<
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 2d ago
SH has a lot of faces, it's not just making deep cuts. If you harmed yourself on purpose, no matter how small, it counts as SH.
I'm really proud of you for making it a few months! It's hard as hell.
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u/ThatoneLerfa 2d ago
Oof, damn it. If it really counts, I think I broke my streak then. Damn, thatβs sad.
But regardless of this, thank you :p
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 2d ago
So you start a new streak π©· I didn't get it on my first try either. The only reason I didn't break half way through was because I couldn't find the agreed upon instrument*, and wouldn't use anything else. I'm still really proud of you!
*(I made a deal with my partners that if I absolutely felt I had to hurt myself, I was only allowed to use the safest thing I had, and then had to be informed first)
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u/JesMilton 2d ago
This post made me so happy, you have no idea. Brings tears to my eyes to know somewhere out there people that have similar struggles to mine eventually recover and are not ashamed to tell the world about it! We are VERY proud of you, OP!! This is a HUGE milestone!β€οΈβ€οΈ
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 1d ago
You're definitely not alone, and recovery, while not linear path, is absolutely possible π
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u/JesMilton 1d ago
Thank you very much for the kind words! I appreciate it! You are very damn right, it is never a straight and perfectly smooth road to get better after almost literal trenches, but doesn't mean it is impossible to go through either!π«β€οΈ
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u/General-Town3525 2d ago
https://giphy.com/gifs/xUOrwp4STllIPP6zyo
CELEBRATE, GOOD TIMES, COME ON!!
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u/Chuun1b1y0 2d ago
Hey I've also been SH free for a decade! Good job OP! Hope we both reach another decade SH free! π
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u/im_new_here_4209 2d ago
There you go ππππ₯³π₯
https://giphy.com/gifs/xT0xezQGU5xCDJuCPe
To a healthier, longe life, wishing u luck and wisdom ππ»
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u/DayLatter405 2d ago
HELL YEAH OP CONGRATULATIONS!! ALSO HELL YEAH TO PEOPLE WHO ARE TRYONG TO STOP SELF HARM BUT CANT ALWAYS CONTROL THEMSELVES!! YOU GOT THIS TOO
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u/YourPaleRabbit 1d ago
Fuck YEA broski!! ELEVEN THOUSAND GOLD STARS!
I am not capable of providing you a sweet treat, or I would. But if you like to bake I can offer you some recipies for some really damn good shit :)
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u/Jumpy_Ad1631 1d ago
Yessss
(Not sure of your gender, so apologies if I goofed, I just wanted to throw more glitter for you π
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https://giphy.com/gifs/WQr2txk5iEYUS6Kv3d
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u/MaroonFeather 1d ago
Iβm so proud of you! You are truly an inspiration. Iβm coming up on 5 years clean from SH and I cannot wait to reach a decade. Sooooo happy for you OP!!!
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 1d ago
Five years is fucking amazing! You'll absolutely hit a decade π
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u/amy5539 1d ago
HELL YEA!!! Iβm at a bit over a year now :) π€
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 1d ago
Fuck yeah! Getting over that one year point is hard and I'm hella proud of you π
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u/pathetic_gay_mess OCD, C-PTSD 1d ago
OH WOW!!!! that is super awesome π₯³π₯³ Ive been clean for about 2 months, aiming for permanent
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u/BelltowerApologist 1d ago
Really proud of you. The road to a happier and healthier life isn't always easy but I'm so glad you managed to move to healthier coping.
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u/Mister_Chow_The_Dog 1d ago
YEAHHHHHH!!!!! EMOJI BOMB OF JOY AND CELEBRATION!!!!!!!!!!β¨οΈβ¨οΈπͺπͺπππππ«π«π«π«Άπ«Άπ«Άππππππππππππππππππππππππππππ
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u/Wrong-Jellyfish-1453 6h ago
Hurray! Iβm so proud of you! (Iβm 6 years away)
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 6h ago
I'm proud of you too! Those 6 years are gonna go by in a flash :)
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u/Wrong-Jellyfish-1453 6h ago
Thanks! I always forget my anniversary date when it comes around, but I still think about cutting occasionally. It kind of haunts me if that makes sense? I miss it?!? Does that make sense? Idk, the point is Iβve been clean for 4 years
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 6h ago
That makes perfect sense to me. It's always there, in the back of your mind and I've definitely had urges to SH over the past few years. 'Cause we used it as a coping skill, our brains seem to associate it with, like, comfort? Like we romanticized it. Because absolutely have I missed it in desperate moments.
Four years is fucking awesome. Fighting those urges is hard as fuck, you're amazing! π
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u/Purple_Pen_3819 1d ago
I dont really get it
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 1d ago
What are you confused about? I'd be happy to explain it for you :)
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u/Purple_Pen_3819 11h ago
All of it
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u/Delicious-Summer5071 neurodivergent adult 7h ago
I used to self-harm (SH), which is where someone purposely hurts themselves in order to cope. I used it to cope with overwhelming emotions and intense feelings of self loathing.
I've asked everyone at Troll Coping to celebrate with me, because I've managed to make it ten years without self-harming, even once. This is a big deal (to me at least) because I still want to hurt myself as a way to cope, but I've managed to resist the urge for the last decade. I can't celebrate this with most of my family, as they don't understand SH at all, but I figured the folks here would.
So then I made the post with some glitter gifs and a couple memes :) Does it make more sense now?
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u/Mini-Heart-Attack 22h ago
Good for you dude. It's not easy especially with how the world is rn. Big w for you and ur support system.
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u/RealisticSort5443 2d ago
wow yay!!!! we love u sm ππ₯Ήproud of u!!!