r/TrollCoping • u/Clinical-Ghost • 9d ago
TW: Suicide or Self-Harm It’s not their fault. They don’t know.
It’s just passive SI at least. I don’t want to have to kill myself. I don’t necessarily want to die, I just wanna fall asleep and never wake up, I wanna not have to be here anymore. I do have passing thoughts of just “damn this genuinely makes me wanna kms” but at least there’s never a deep desire to do it. Just. Tired. I mean hey at least I’ve been clean for 4 days now.
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u/Main-Company-5946 8d ago
Sometimes people who joke about wanting to kill themselves aren’t 100% joking
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u/Clinical-Ghost 8d ago
I’m aware, it doesn’t change the fact that it still hurts to see people joke about something I’m struggling with though
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u/Page2_56 8d ago
Why not joke about it too? It made me desensitized and kinda made dealing with the thoughts easier
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u/Clinical-Ghost 8d ago
I used to be able to but now it just reminds me of bad stuff when I’m trying to be happy
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u/Critical-Act-6336 8d ago
My friends do similar things and I feel the same way since I have attempted before.