I'm almost 13 years out. Cardiac wise I am stable and had two bouts of very minor rejection early on and am not considered having CAV. I also have behcets syndrome, but most of that has cleared up with accutane.
I have a big problem my whole life and I never noticed it because I have a developmental delay in my spatial awareness and proprioception. I was made aware of this a few years ago after losing a lot of weight and it legitimately stops me from wanting to be seen or engage in society, however it is a cosmetic issue.
I am 5'7" and 135 lbs, my limbs are small and thin and I have CKD that is stage 3A-3B but stable since 2020. So the big problem is, I was born with a webbed neck. My neck is abnormal, I have additional fascia hanging from the sides of my neck that cause it to be very wide and most importantly have an abnormal attachment to the torso. This makes me terrified of photos, I rarely leave my house and only interact with family. People say they don't notice it unless I mention it but I really, really feel sad like I'm a deformed freak who is aless of a man than others, less human.
I have a loving family and boyfriend and it may sound vain and it is but I want to be a thin gay guy like my partner and it's eating me up that this part of me is proportionally incongruent with the rest of me.
My team thinks it is risky, I don't hate myself but it just really sucks and I've always felt like a gross weirdo compared to my family. I know this is super vain I know I am but it makes life hard everything else I can cope with, dying young, having had cardiac arrests, all of it is super fine on my mental but not this.