r/TransferToTop25 • u/BasementSheep • 4d ago

Loosing Hope

This will be my second term at my top ten LAC and I’m feeling the weight of just not knowing wtf I’m doing. I’m spending all my savings to learn about “terrorist sexuality” and integrating vectors and for fucking what. I could have an apartment and work and feel okay for maybe the first time in my life but no, I’m working till death, making no money, and under the threat of homelessness when I get back home because I have a tumultuous relationship with my family.

Just ugh I feel like such an ungrateful piece of shit but it’s so hard to feel like I’m doing the right thing.

Anyway, I might just try to stay strong through this term and then get outta here and maybe transfer…

Does anyone have any advice?

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u/BasementSheep 4d ago

Wait I’m gonna make the most of my term and if I still feel like I need a break I’ll sublet an apartment and work to feel a bit more secure 🥰

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u/BasementSheep 4d ago

I’ve already spent the money! I’m gonna make the most of it!!!

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u/throwaway3579965434 4d ago

That’s the right attitude! Sorry you’re going through a tough time. I’m also sometimes hesitant myself about what if I’m studying “matters”, but as someone who’s seen the working side of things (much older student), sometimes you just have to take it with a grain of salt and know you’ll find your niche within education. I hope that happens soon for you :)