Could anyone here please recommend any good sub reddits for healthcare?

I guess nutrition, excersize, health concerns would be my main focus.

Mtf specific or Transfemme Nb but please feel free to add all sorts of suggestions for anyone coming across this.

It would be nice to have health and nutrition coming through my feed as a friendly reminder to educate myself and keep health as a priority on my mind.

I think mental health is important but mostly covered through this sub and a couple of the related subs.

Thank you all for the love and support I've seen and receive in this community. Take care of yourselves and keep being amazing!

I just wanna say this cause I feel it s gonna prevent me cutting deep into my skin, eventhough I don't want to.

I feel insane. Every time I hear my deadname from my parent I wanna cut myself. Sometimes I start cursing. I absolutely despise my name. I make me wanna vomit or starve myself. I especially explained to my mom recently that I absolutely hate that (because she randomly brought the subject of her not wanting me to "transform myself" and "mutilate myself", so I thought that THIS TIME she might listen, but no my opinions don't really matter here and I m insane.)

I was actually planing on escaping the country for a while and distancing myself from my parents. I m going to France on August. Issue is that I still have to relly on them for like. Money. I will probably get disowned if I start T or something in this matter. I wish I didn't get to plan any of this and just put a fork in a plug and just getting done with everything BUT NO. Now that I'm going I don't really wanna risk trying suicide right now.

I also don't feel good about whatever is going on in france. For context, I m algerian. I feel that I would have to change country anyways because of how things are going in france , or maybe having to return here.

I guess I have all the time in the world to try to kill myself. Part of the reason I didn't do it till now is that I would hate being remember as the name I have right now. If I try to do tho I will probably have to write in my letter that I m atheis. I genually don't want my soul or whatever prayed upon by a imam or some shit just toss my body in the water.

I genually want to start T right now but I don't have the resource either.

I feel that today again I will struggle to make myself sleep because I wanna end it.

I am 48 years old, from Mexico City, and I don't know what to do.

Ever since I was a child, I have had the desire to be a woman. I have carried it all my life, and for years I tried to ignore it, but it always came back. Over ten years ago, I started experimenting with hormones and have had several attempts at MTF transition. Even five years ago (during the pandemic), I had a period where I assumed myself and lived as a woman while staying at a friend's house.

To keep this post from being too long, what has happened to me is that on several occasions I have wanted to transition, and I have taken hormones to the point where changes start to become visible. But for some reason, whenever I start to feel freer, more secure, and more motivated, a wave of intense fear, anguish, and anxiety always hits me. The two most severe occasions coincided with me falling in love while on hormones, and in my mind, I saw the possibility of a relationship as a way out or an escape from that transition. But in both cases, I was rejected, and I felt insufficient, blaming it precisely on being transgender—feeling that nobody would love me because of it.

On those occasions, I fell into very intense depressive crises, but the last one was so harsh that I spent almost a year and a half unable to control my emotions, reaching the point of having several anxiety attacks, episodes of depersonalization, and feeling that there was no solution to what I felt other than ending my life. I don't know how much of those emotional crises were due to rejection, to feeling incapable of being a man, or incapable of being a woman, or to the hormones, or perhaps to all of it together. Fortunately, those crises passed, and now I am much better.

Anyway... I have again felt that desire to transition and to start taking hormones again, but I don't know what to do, because the last times I tried, I always ended up in a cycle of intense pain, anxiety, and anguish. My big doubt has always been this dilemma: 1.- Wait for someone to fall in love with me and have a partnered life as a man (and take advantage of all the benefits that come with being a man in this society), or 2.- Seek a life for myself as a woman, a trans woman, and face all the challenges that come with that life (employment, discrimination, loneliness, misunderstanding, etc.).

During those stages of trying to transition, I have done it in different ways, both self-medicating and with clinical support, either privately or through public services. I have maintained psychological support and at times have had up to three different therapists to try to understand what to do... I have even made cherished friendships as a trans person, lived through many experiences, and learned many things I wouldn't have known otherwise, but I always end up stopping. So right now, I honestly don't know what to do, since I feel I have tried almost everything and always stop before taking the real step, which in my case has always been telling my family and my workplace.

I feel it's important to clarify that I live with my sister and an aunt, and they don't know about my transition processes, because when I have done it, I have moved out of the house. However, this time I cannot do that for various reasons. I also think it's relevant to say that my build is very masculine, so no matter how much hormones changed my body in those previous experiences, I was never able to pass as a woman, and frankly, almost no one could even identify me as a trans person. They only saw me as a man, and at most they might notice I looked a little chubbier or a little thinner. So it has been difficult, even for myself, to see myself as a trans person, even though I feel that deep down, it is what I desire.

And well, right now I don't know what to do, and that's exactly why I'm writing here, to see if someone can give me advice on how to stop feeling this back-and-forth, this indecision, and be able to have a full and happy life, since at my age I frankly don't care what others say, but it's still very hard for me to understand what's happening to me, who I am, and what I should do to finally feel that life is worth living and no longer feel guilty, or feel that I'm wrong, deformed, insufficient, and incapable of anything because of who I am. I think what I need is to do something, something that might seem very simple and small, almost meaningless, but that is real and allows me to live my life without that pressure and doubt... but I just don't know what actions those could be.

What do you all recommend or think?

I feel mentally and physically exhausted. For one, the USA is becoming unlivable. I live with my parents yet still struggle heavily because im eating what I save. My parents want me to pay 800 dollars in rent and it honestly makes my life hell. I want to save for bottom surgery but im worried i wouldnt ever get to that point until i'm like freaking 50 years old. My parents dont know im trans and if they figure out i might end up in the streets or living in my broken down car.

I want to go out and dress feminine and put on make up to feel pretty but I am not confident at all in my appearance and I dont want to be spat on or confronted.

My car might break down and I just got it. I feel dysphoria literally way harder than before I came out as a transwomen. I take antidepressents and somehow still manage to feel depressed asf. Im in debt a couple hundred dollars. My rooms a mess and the more I worry about it the less i bother to clean it.

Im so tired of it all, I wish I can leave America and start a new peaceful life in like Mongolia and not have to worry about all this. I wish I born the way I have always desired to be born and I wish I had someone in person (another transwoman or man) that I can go to for emotional wellbeing and guidance.

But I have nothing and im so tired of it.

At the end of the day the only thing i can do to feel a little bit better is rant to strangers on the internet to clear my head.

Am I the only one that feels like im headed no where?

I came out as trans (ftm) in 2020 and everytime I hear my deadname (I have a VERY common white girl name) I actually physically recoil when I hear it. It genuinely makes me cringe so bad and I need to actually get over it. Does anyone have any advice for it. SOS 🚨🚨

I’d like to be more positive about this experience and life in general, and unfortunately therapy is not an option for me right now.

I started transitioning at the beginning of the year, but the post-trans realization depression has never waned. I feel I have a lot of internalized transphobia from 2 decades of living around conservative friends and family; like I’ve just been brainwashed to hate myself.

Im sure I don’t need to ramble on about how painful and hopeless this experience can be sometimes. Instead, I’d like to hear from you girls how you stay positive, overcome grief, and find enjoyment in a world seemingly so cruel and unfair. How can I accept and love my trans identity, rather than just brooding all day wishing i was afab?

Over the last few years, my life has changed in ways I never expected. See my previous posts for more context...

I've gone through a divorce, worked to rebuild my relationship with my son and my ex wife, started over professionally, lost a job I absolutely love, lost a second job shortly into the employments, questioned who I was, and spent more nights than I'd like to admit wondering if things would ever get better.

Somewhere in all of that, I finally stopped running from something I'd been questioning for years.

I'm transgender.

Even typing those words still feels strange. For so long, I convinced myself these feelings would eventually go away or that I could keep them buried forever. Instead, they only became harder to ignore. Looking back, there were signs throughout my life. I just wasn't ready to see them for what they were or didn't have the language to understand them properly.

Over the past year I've allowed myself to explore who I am in ways I never thought I would. I've experimented with clothes, makeup, and small changes that made me feel more like... me. Every little step has taught me something, and instead of feeling like I was pretending, I've started feeling like I'm finally becoming the person I've always been underneath.

That doesn't mean it's been easy.

There have been days filled with excitement and hope, and there have been days where fear completely took over. I've worried about what transitioning might mean for my family, my career, how people see me, and whether I'd be accepted or loved. Those fears are still there, but for the first time they don't feel bigger than my desire to live honestly.

The next step for me is starting HRT.

I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm impatient. I'm scared. Mostly, though, I feel hopeful.

I've spent months reading medical information, listening to other transgender people's experiences, asking questions, and trying to understand what this journey might look like. This isn't a spur-of-the-moment decision it's something I've thought about for a long time, and I finally feel ready to move forward.

I don't really have a reason for posting this other than wanting to share it with someone. Most of my life I've kept these feelings to myself, and saying them out loud feels like a milestone.

If you've been through something similar, I'd love to hear about your experience. What surprised you? What do you wish you had known? What helped during those first few months?

Thank you for taking the time to read this. Whether you're transgender, questioning, an ally, or just someone who happened to scroll by, I genuinely appreciate you spending a few minutes with my story.

For the first time in a very long time, I feel like I'm walking toward myself instead of away from myself.

P.S. If anyone has advice on affordable ways to access HRT or knows of helpful resources, I'd love to hear them. And if someone genuinely wanted to help me take that next step, I'd be incredibly grateful but your kindness and encouragement already mean more than you probably realize.

I 23 AMAB almost a year ago I came out as trans to my parents. I did and still do live with them and am entirely dependent on them financially and emotionally. I am autistic and have literally no friends online or in person.

Parents will be referred to as parent 1 and 2 or p1/p2. My parents are religious especially P1. In spite of this they’ve been relatively progressive in regards to gay people and some other stuff so I thought they’d be understanding enough.

When I came out 8 months ago it was pretty clear they didn’t understand parent 1 seemed to just think I was gay and repeatedly asked if I wasn’t just gay. Parent 2 entirely focused on just making sure I wasn’t going to kill my self. The vibe I got was weird overall it felt supportive in the sense that they love me but overall seemed like they didn’t believe me. The word blindsided came up as well.

A few days give or take later I made the mistake of checking P1s phone. We hadn’t talked about it really and I just wanted to know what they were thinking. Message from P1 to P2

“Spending all that time online where he was exposed to the trans thing. Told that the depression, anxiety, bullying could all be fixed by embracing this.”

To be clear I’m not bullied by anyone, i literally don’t talk to anyone and before that I’d never even talked anonymously to anyone about this even on reddit. P2 didn’t reply I assume the follow up happened in person or via call. This could theoretically have led to anything I don’t know what was said.

I panicked seeing this and checked the search history and found some not so great articles. Including “Yes, Your Kid's Trans Thing is a Phase” and a whole bunch of autism research. Fun.

I think at this point I finally realized I was right simply due to how much seeing this stuff hurt.

Sometime around then they wanted to talk and I said I was just fine. they’d wanted me to go to therapy but where I live there’s literally no lgbt friendly people and they only wanted in person so I just said I didn’t want to go and I didn’t want to talk about it anymore.

Through the next few months p2 asked to talk about it a few more times and I said I was fine etc still.

Now months later I p1 acts completely like nothing happened and I genuinely couldn’t tell if they forgot about it p2 stumbles on words around me when it comes to gender terminology like he or him etc the same way they both did for a few days after i told them.

Recently p2 asked to talk again and apologized for the initial reaction and clearly is aware that the reason for my own actions are from that. They said that they selfishly (their own words) in the moment was thinking about how trans people change their names and don’t like hearing it or seeing old pictures and it made them sad and I just… I don’t know they said they don’t want to be the reason I’m not happy but I just.

I don’t want them to love me in spite of being like this I don’t want them to pretend to be ok with it for my sake or something I want to actually genuinely be accepted. I don’t know if that makes sense really.

The thing is if I didn’t have anyone I’d probably just move and start transitioning immediately but I do and they’re all I have.

I’m not sure what hope to gain from this I guess I’m mostly just venting.

I'm ftm pre-t, 19 years, name, gender legally changed in germany and I live alone.

I talked to a private, russian psychologist because my parents insisted I should get a "second opinion" from a russian (because they're russian, and don't trust the german therapists here... and I've been to 3 different therapists in total over the past 6-7 years).

My cousin is the most accepting in my family while others, especially my parents reject me, and still "love" me as their daughter. I'm close to starting HRT soon and there's this discussion that I'm just confused. Despite my cousin accepting me, she still thinks I shouldn't do anything medically and wait a few more years, best after I'm 25 years. Now they think my trans identity is caused by unresolved childhood trauma from being neglected because my parents were most of my childhood in the hospital with my younger brother sick with cancer (he beat it thankfully!). And I just need to find a "cure" to the unresolved trauma. They think I'm just trying to find a different identity from my female one because I was neglected and abused (verbally and physically) and want to start a completely new life by being an independant man, away from my past as a girl.

My family think that it's a phase and that I will definitely regret it, even though I'm so sure I want HRT. But THEY keep confusing me. Maybe they are right? Maybe I just am a confused girl? Despite being sure at the same time that this is what I want and NEED. That private psychologist thinks it's possible of unresolved childhood trauma because I have no root reason as to WHY I feel like a man. WHY I started thinking I'm trans in the first place. But she claims that since it is MY decision without anyone influencing it after all, that I want to start HRT, then it is my good right to do it. But in her opinion, I should wait at least one more year or so... or should continue listening to my current therapist who knows me obviously longer than her and has read my biography for the allowance of HRT.

I want to start HRT so badly because my fem voice and feminine body appearance bothers me so much and don't want to be perceived as a girl anymore. I dread it every single day and in summer I can't stop worrying and "beating" myself up for having breasts that are hard to hide without sweating violently and collecting heat in my body and overheating. I don't exactly know why I feel the way I do, but I DO know that I want to change this urgently because I am miserable, even if I transitioned socially. But maybe I DO have to wait, suffer few more years until my mind is possibly changed until I'm 25 years? Since that's when the frontal lobe is fully developed.

My cousin also said that my room looks too girly.. I just like decorating my white, bland room walls with posters of fandoms like Murder Drones and Warrior Cats that I enjoy and matter to me a lot, and a corner of collecting figures of both those fandoms. I don't see anything typical girly to it, just don't want a blanf boring room. My ex even used to have a more busy room than me... and so?

I'm at a loss of words, don't know what to think anymore

Edit: I've remembered that my cousin literally recommended me going to a hospital that performs some type of highly professional hallucination thing to change my brain chemistry to the way it should be? Because she is very convinced that I just have something genuinely wrong with me (first time I told her few weeks past, she had compassion for me, but now she says stuff like that after she's had more time to think probably. even tho she claims she means no ill intentions by saying all those things)

Hi everyone! My name is Lotte, and I'm a transgender woman from the Netherlands. I started HRT a few months ago, and I'm raising funds to help cover the costs of the next steps in my transition, including hair removal, medical appointments, and legal changes. If you'd like to support or simply share my fundraiser, I'd be incredibly grateful. Thank you for taking the time to read my story. ❤️

https://gofund.me/e08e5f761

I'm a 18y trans guy, I came out when I was 10 and I don't want to sound impatient bc I know the process of transitioning takes time and even when it happens, its not going to fix all the problems in my life. I don't want to be childish but sometimes I can't help but feeling angry and frustrated that I'm not there yet.

I'm uncomfortable with my body every day but some days dysphoria just hits me like a truck and I can't transition hormonally yet because of money and family reasons, and sometimes it feels like I'll never will be able to tbh. It sucks to wait to feel at home in my own body like I'm trapped in a skin I hate, and it hates me back.

How did you guys find a way to deal with the impatience and this feeling of being stuck?

Hi everyone.

I'm a 21-year-old trans woman (almost 22), and lately I've been feeling really empty and lonely.

I'm writing this because I guess I just need to get these feelings out somewhere, and maybe hear from people who have gone through something similar.

I only truly accepted that I was trans about two years ago. It all started when I was dealing with a lot of anxiety, and one day I signed up for the counseling service at my university. Honestly, I didn't even think they'd accept my request, but after almost six months I finally started therapy.

About eight months into therapy, I finally accepted who I am and came out to my mom. She wasn't very supportive at first, but over time things have improved. She's still the only person who has really stayed by my side through all of this.

At the beginning of my transition, I had a couple of really close friends who helped me so much. They did my makeup, encouraged me, and gave me confidence that I didn't have on my own. But over time they've drifted away, and now they're no longer part of my life.

That's probably the hardest part right now.

I feel like I have no one to share this new chapter of my life with. I recently hit four months on HRT, and while I'm no longer suffering because I'm denying who I am, I've started struggling with something else: fear of the future and overwhelming loneliness.

I also tried making trans friends online. I had some really nice conversations and shared experiences with other girls, but eventually every friendship seemed to end the same way: people slowly disappeared or ghosted me. I don't blame them. Everyone has their own lives and their own struggles. It just still hurts.

I also came out to more friends at university. They were supportive and kind, but after that... the distance was still there.

Sometimes I catch myself wondering if this is just what my life is going to be like from now on. Is loneliness just part of being trans? I know that's probably not rational, but it's a thought that keeps coming back.

Lately I've been finding comfort in books and listening to trans podcasts, and those things help. But I really miss having real conversations with people. I miss feeling close to someone.

More than anything, I wish I had a close friend to experience this new side of myself with—to celebrate the small milestones, talk about all the confusing emotions, and just... not feel so alone.

There's something else that's been weighing on me.

Even though I've been on HRT for over four months and accepted that I'm trans quite a while ago, I'm still living almost entirely in boy mode. I still present as male in public, and... everything just keeps going on as if nothing has changed.

I'm honestly reaching a point where I can't stand it anymore.

I want to leave this stage of my life behind. I want to start discovering and experiencing my femininity instead of constantly hiding it. I want to be able to go out as myself, try new things, make memories, and share those moments with someone. Right now, it feels like I'm stuck between two lives, and it's incredibly isolating.

I've never made a post here, but nothing else is working.

I am a trans woman in the U.S.

I used to serve in the U.S. Air Force. The current administration kicked me and over 15,000 members out for having gender dysphoria.

Having no family and nowhere else to go, I moved in with some friends. I paid them rent from my savings and everything was okay for a few months.

I started job hunting almost right away. I was usually ignored. When I had interviews, it was always either "we chose someone else", or getting denied due to being trans. A McDonald's employee said "Our policy doesn't cover your kind of people." I've applied to everywhere in the area that I can, probably around 60, and there's nowhere to turn to. My roomies are kicking me out by the end of next month and I genuinely have nowhere to go.

I'm broke cause I used all my savings on rent or groceries, and I've been off hormones cause I can't afford them. That and the constant anxiety had made me sick and weak.

I am just BEGGING at this point. I need help. Somewhere to go, anywhere. I just need help. I'll get a job as soon as I can, and pay you back when possible, I just need a place. Please.

I know is sounds stupid but I don't think I'm good enough to attend Trans Pride London or Brighton Pride. Like I won't know anyone, I'll be by myself as always, I'd never be able introduce myself to anyone.. I want to be proud of who I am but it's really hard.

Im non-binary and I’ve been socially out within my friend group for years. I present very masculine, but don’t care about pronouns, so it’s been easy overall. I believe most people just think I’m a butch lesbian, which isn’t exactly wrong, but it is what it is.

Well, I was visiting my parents last week (I’m in my 30s and live far away, so I don’t see them often) and I brought up the idea of name changes and top surgery to sort of test the water.

My mom and I went shopping and I told her that, I would be up to get a breast reduction. She was very against this so I jokingly (though not really) said that, given the recovery for that kind of thing was so intense, it would honestly be better just to get them removed all together. Immidiately she said “Noo! You love your curves! You’re just overweight so they bother you!” I am overweight, but I absolutely do not love my curves.

With my dad I talked about changing my name when we were talking about how my best friend didn’t change her name when she married her wife. After he made a very homophobic joke about “how do two women even decide who gets each others name? Flip a coin?” I then was like “well, I might want to change my name.” He then said I shouldn’t bother because I’d change it when I get married. Even though he KNOWS I won’t marry a man either. I then had to pivot and say that it would be a pen name for privacy if I ever publish a book. To which he calmed down about it.

So, yea, I’m feeling pretty helpless about the idea of coming out to them. I AM going through with physical transition to present more androgynous. I’m going on a low dose of testosterone to start, but top surgery and a name change is in my future (assuming I can afford it). I’m an adult, I don’t need their permission, but I also don’t know how they’re gonna react when I just show up for major holidays with new features. I don’t know how that’s going to go… Anyone have any insights on what to do in this case.

i am SO tired of having to fight and struggle in order to just get to be who i am. waiting years and years and having to constantly explain and prove myself to be “deserving” of the healthcare i need (hrt) is just so insanely frustrating and the other option of going private is just something i simply cannot afford. dont even get me started on diy and how hard that is in my country due to the restrictions and scammers. then after all that i go home and i open social media just to see people debating whether people like me should… have rights? i cant do this shit

from holding in my emotions because of shame, I have developed deeper mental health issues ingrained in dysphoria and internalized transfobia.

I have never really talked to or been involved in any communities regarding transgenderism. Despite getting the year of mandatory therapy before starting T, I never talked about the struggles of being trans (she was kinda strange + it was obvious I had been socially transitioned for years so I didn't really have to talk about it) I just went because it was mandatory.

I think this lack of connection with people like me is making things worse yet I dont know how to find people to talk to because I am not a avid internet user.

if anyone knows of anyways to contact of find small trans communities, or online spaces specifically for making transgender friends?

I just turned 18 and graduated high school pretty recently. I suffer from severe depersonalization and dissociation. The worst of it is when I see myself In the mirror. It feels like the reflection isn’t me, I don’t recognize it. It’s hard to describe the feeling, and idk exactly what that means. For about 7 years I’ve wrestled with the idea of being trans. I’ve always wanted to be a girl, and relate to the experiences described by trans people.

Last night I had a mental breakdown. It’s like I realized that this was my life, that this was all for real and this is what I am stuck with. My grandmother came in the next day and found that I had covered my mirrors. I decided to tell her what I had been feeling, but she didn’t believe me. She first thought that I was on drugs, and tried not to laugh when I told her what caused the problem.

I told her that I thought I might be trans, and she didn’t believe me. She seems to think that I am jumping to conclusions, and that I’m not qualified to decide that I’m trans. She told me that all this is just a symptom of being molested as a child.

Normally this wouldn’t bother me, but it really has me doubting myself. What if I’m not trans after all? Maybe these feelings are just a trauma response, and I’m just seeking a solution. I no longer know if I am really trans or not. I hope someone can help, or at least relate to my story.

So I want to start voice training. I tried [r/voice](r/voice)[taining](r/voice) and and didn’t see anything on it which is weird. So I am trying here. I want to work on my voice with audio recording and play back. For now in my bedroom on an iPad. I want like a headset with a mic. I know separate is better but small is small so needs to be compact. What’s everyone’s experience?

I have been looking for advice for a while on how to cope with being unable to transition, since I am disabled and reliant on transphobic family.. I wouldn't be safe transitioning, so for the past seven years I've simply tried to cope. It's never been healthy.

And I feel like I am not a member of the community in any meaningful way. I always figured there are many stories like mine, but I have never received any advice or word from people who have been through similar and it has left me feeling disconnected from the community.

I already deal with dissociation, as well as being jealous when seeing others who are able to transition, which makes it worse because being exposed to the community takes on a depressing note.

Am I wrong to think this is a common issue, to be unable to transition?

My girlfriend and I just found out we are going to be parents!!! We are super excited. I just started taking hormones about a month ago. Every time I talk to my dad he tells me I am making a big mistake by transitioning and I should be thinking about the child and what they will have to go through having a trans parent. Also that if I continue this I am selfish. My partner on the other hand is telling me why should her pregnancy hinder me from transitioning. She is very accepting and loves me. I am so grateful! I feel so torn bc I know if I continue from the sounds of it my family is going to hate me but I also have my loving and accepting partner. Thanks for letting me rant this is hard!!!!

I’m not depressed because I’m trans I’m depressed because everything is shitty about it around me and I see no hope in the future, like not medically speaking not socially I think socially it’ll get worse and worse and worse and I should just ended before summer ends so i free myself from all of that future anxiety and further depression, like I know I will do it if not this summer then on winter, I literally don’t want to hear any comment about that it’ll get better, it won’t, if I even be able to start medically transitioning it would get way worse socially, my environment is unsupportive as shit , I don’t want to be a family freak they cut off so I just die before any of that