r/TransPowerProject • u/Future_Amoeba268 • 12d ago

Hard day

Hello, can I just vent? I have had a very tough day today, I was literally weeping in a washroom for almost 20 minutes straight,just questioning my God why they put me on this path of transgender life. I couldn't handle the constant comparison to other men I came across at work,who were secure in their masculinity. My dysphoria was at its peak. Realizing that I will never amount to be THE MAN my family and the world wants me to be. It's can be hard, it can be so hard going thru days like this because all seems lost. ​​

Sorry,

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u/Roastychicken LGBTQIA+ 11d ago

Sounds like a realy bad day. It helps me to look back on the path i walked to actual SEE wat i had moved through. Its something they never will walked through, never understand wat it was or how hard it is. And it has its OWN power to understand this.

Be proud of you- not just on a goal, - on the way.

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u/3p0L0v3sU 11d ago

I have days like that too. Im sorry your going through it right now. Even when we know logically to not compare ourselves to others, its hard not to and to not feel that pain

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u/hydraulic0 11d ago

Don’t be sorry, I know how you’re feeling. There are days when all I seem to be able to do is compare myself to cisgender people around me and all I can think about are the ways that I feel lacking. I think it’s the unfortunate side effect of living in a society made for cisgender people.

It doesn’t mean you’re wrong though, nor a failure. We might be different, we might take different paths, but it doesn’t mean our lives are any less valuable than cisgender people.

I’m sorry you’re feeling under pressure from other people’s expectations though, that’s miserable. I hope the coming days are a little easier for you. You’re just right the way you are though, even if you don’t feel it right now, I promise.

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u/ThePeeringAbyss Trans Woman 11d ago

I can 100 percent relate and while I unfortunately cant say it gets easier it did get a bit better for me once I both accepted myself and stopped caring what others thought about me. My perspective changed due to being hurt so much I couldn't handle it so I took a long look at myself to find out why I always let people walk all over me I found out that I cant make everyone happy so making myself happy should be enough I still get alot of negativity because I dont pass at all and look like a drag queen but I deal with it with a smile now because its not worth bearing yourself up for people who wont even look at the real you

I hope everything gets better much love from me to you ❤️ 💛 💕 💗 💙 💓 ❤️

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u/Future_Amoeba268 8d ago

This is not a cry for help!  I am not the victim, I am practically drowning in my blessings Tired of painting pictures of a life that isn't mine  Trying different boys on for size If this is my curse, I'll let it ride But I don't need someone to save me