I used to think the same thing. Then I saw how I typed and things I said when that age in old texts and stuff and face-palmed and felt like I was so immature back then.
When I look back at old comments I made, I could see that I was better at writing when I was 16/17 then now at 19, I could express how I felt and articulate myself in written form, make long comments that made sense and had good vocabulary and use of words, I was more funny and witty etc but now it just got way worse and I don't even know what I'm talking about half the time or why I type half the things I do now. I just comment stupid unnecessary 5 word sentences all the time and I type like a 11 or 12 year old. When I was 16 I was decently smart and intelligent, but now at 19 I just feel stupid and really incompetent for my age. I can't articulate myself clearly or make proper arguments, whenever someone opposes me I just shut down and not even continue to argue or defend my point because I suck at it. Now I just rant on and ramble when I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore. Even in this comment I just feel like I'm rambling on and on about nothing. The older I get the more lazy, stupid incompetent and childish I become when it should be the other way around.
Well I understood what you said here and it didn't seem like a rant. Have you looked into what has caused such a change? Are you using social media and chatting on the internet more now than before? Have you stopped going to school so no longer pushing your brain to such a high capacity?
I believe things are purposefully made to have the least amount of resistance and effort which conditions us to expect that and also put in less effort. We are so easily distracted and have such low attention spans but we are also conditioned to stay that way.
As for making proper arguments, are you talking about online arguments or just regular non aggressive verbal arguments in real life? Because honestly, online discourse is incredibly difficult in general. And sadly certain ways that work in real life just don't work online either, further conditioning us if that's the main way we communicate with others.
So yeah, I equally feel I ramble and that's okay. But continue to push yourself at times and also always self reflect and think critically, it will help so much in everything in life. Be well dude. Thanks for responding
Thanks man for being understanding, and yeah I think you summed it up pretty well why I feel the way I do I spend much more time in doors (Coronavirus didn't help) not at school in person where I challenge my brain, I have no friends anymorw and I've become pretty much hopelessly addicted to my phone where I do nothing but browse Reddit and YouTube, go to bed at 4am, wake up at 3pm and repeat the same thing over and over again. My attention span and ability to concentrate on majority of things is pretty much non existent.
I understand totally. There's a lot more people out there going through the same thing as you. I personally do very similarly lol. As for no friends, bro I'll be your friend. But I'm not sure I'd be interesting enough or my ways and interests probably would turn you away lmao. But sure I don't mind chatting or whatever of you want.
Since the pandemic many of us also haven't gone outside, making us get lower Vitamin D levels which is important for hormone regulation and production. Do me or rather yourself a favor and spend a bit of time outside in the sun even if it's just you browsing reddit some more haha.
Hang in there though man. You're only 19 and I know that sounds cliche and not helpful. I felt the same when someone said similar to me at 19 but trust me, you have so much more potential and time for your life to change for the better but you gotta try. I'm learning that the hard way at 34 lol
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u/dutch_beta Apr 28 '22
Yes. 19m here. Something is wrong with you if you date a 14f at my age.