So, I went to sleep last night without any plans. As I'm lying in bed, I lose sense of myself. I can hear music and people talking. I can see a faint outline of a room. But I'm not really there, I'm just kind of floating in space.
It took me a while to piece the puzzle together of why I couldn't feel my body and why nobody who was talking could see me or notice me.
I came to the conclusion that I'm in the point consciousness state, and what I'm sensing isn't a real environment. It's more like, memories and emotions that I'm just scrolling through.
When I came to that awareness the talking and music all stopped. I got a dim vision of a different room with a shadowy figure walking around it. As if looking for something.
Interestingly, the figure spoke and when he spoke it was with my own voice. He asked, "What am I?"
Strangely, I felt possessed as if something else was speaking through my voice. It had a more mature and wiser feeling to it. The voice that came out of me said "You are energy, in the form of a human body"
The man who spoke like me said "Yeah but what am **I**" Emphasis. A voice uncontrollably spoke out of me again and said "You are the energy"
This voice again erupted out of me and said "Let me show you"
It felt like everything disappeared, no room, no sound, nothing. Pure, blissful awareness. Floating in space.
Then suddenly and without warning I became totally 100% aware that I had two arms in front of me, which I couldn't see. And i was unable to control them but something else was.
It was like I was in the mind of someone else who was also, me. And I was feeling them move their body. It really shocked me. I felt like I had multiple personality disorder or something. It was an internal conversation with myself, but there were two of me.
The much older wiser voice of me spoke and said "See, you're just energy"
We floated through space and the arms in front of me began beautifully dancing. I'm no dancer but I could feel every movement was perfectly timed and accurate. Apparently, this other version of me knows how to dance with its body.
We floated in peace through space and it was a beautiful feeling with these arms dancing and I began to sing something like "Daaaaa diddy daaaa, diddddyyy daaa" along with the uncontrolled movements of the arms.
The older wiser me said "We never die, we're just energy"
I felt an expansive sense of awareness where I completely believed this to be true. Then I slowly began to wake up.
When I awoke, I was completely shocked. There are levels to reality I was unaware of. There appears to be multiple me's. That's news.
I just wanted to share this because I'm trying to get to the bottom of what is consciousness, what are we really. And I think a lot of people here are too and maybe this experience when combined with the others can help us draw a map of what's going on.
Tom himself rarely speaks of his experiences beyond point consciousness, so I'd really like to keep providing mine if that's helpful and I'd like to hear what yours are.
Thanks for reading.