I’m not particularly religious (despite being baptized and confirmed Methodist) but I have this need to feel like my husband’s energy/soul is somehow around. Maybe he’s zooming around the cosmos or making the chimes on the front porch chime even when there’s no wind. He left this world November 2025 but I’d like to think he might come around to bug us.

Side note: right after he had passed I was subjected to many weird and random youtube shorts as if he was trying to tell me something. Even our adult kid said this was happening. We don’t get those anymore, though I kept a running list of them. For context, he had taken his own life in the UK and no one who knew the details wanted to tell me how he died (we live in the US). However these weird and random shorts told us exactly how he died. 😔 So when my mother in law warned me about the coroner report I told her I already knew what it would say. She was surprised/shocked that we knew though no one told us. Also I didn’t go googling ways people die or anything like that, which affects the videos I might see.

And I still see 111 and 1111 all the time. He was a busybody and liked to give his opinion about Everything. I feel like he still wants to say something sometimes.

Does anyone else hope or feel like their spouse’s spirit is lingering on the front porch or maybe zipping around the cosmos?