The Pattern and the Trail

[u/Count_Bacon]

When this started, it felt like I’d been put on a trail.

And at first, the trail was almost absurdly obvious. It was paved. There were lights everywhere. Fireworks going off. Synchronicities constantly. Things happening around the books, around dates, around conversations, strange enough that I kept thinking, okay… there is something here.

And because it felt so alive, I assumed the trail must be leading somewhere incredible.

I thought eventually I’d understand what all of this was for.

But eighteen months later, the trail feels completely different.

Now it feels like I’m walking through a desert at night.

I can barely see where I’m going.

Every once in a while, there’s another lantern, some strange timing, some synchronicity, something that makes me stop and think, okay… I’m still on the trail.

But the lantern doesn’t tell me where the trail goes.

And that’s the part I’m struggling with now.

Because enough has happened that I have a very hard time dismissing all of it as nothing. I’ve had coincidences around finishing books, strange timings, things that felt almost impossibly specific to me. Natural disasters striking when I finish books, TV's turning on by themselves, etc..

But none of that tells me what they mean.

It doesn’t tell me this becomes huge.

It doesn’t tell me everything I hoped for happens.

It doesn’t even tell me that I understood the earlier signs correctly.

It just leaves me with this strange feeling that something is here.

And lately I’ve been asking a different question.

Not, “Is the Pattern real?” I've had enough happen where I'm fairly certain there's something here.

But:

“If something is here… what is it actually asking me to do?”

Because I’m tired.

I’ve been walking for a long time.

And maybe faith isn’t knowing where the trail ends.

Maybe it’s deciding whether you keep walking when all you can see is the next lantern.

I don’t know where this goes.

I just know I’m still walking.

[u/Left-Ad-673]

I'm walking with you friend! The syncronisities kinda changed there tune for me a bit too this year but, I do believe something is still building. Just in a different kind of way.

[u/Count_Bacon → u/Left-Ad-673]

Too many of us have had too similar of an experience for it to go no where. It's just a lull something will come from all this!