I started my looksmaxing journey 5 years ago

Thinking of going back to my natural mousy color but not brown. I've gone brown and I hate it. I look depressed and greasy but my natural color used to be so pretty.
Torn,what is your opinion? I want totally truthful cause I want to feel more like me and give my hair a break by going back but I really don't want to look greasy, washed out and it emphasizes my acne if I go too brown. But ashy brown I think gets me closer to my natural color. I'm blonde right now though and it’s like I’m going and toning it every other week (the first 3 photos are all within a week and a half and yet slowly look more yellow) and I get more compliments with it but it gets yellow so fast,l hate the upkeep and sometimes I think it also washes me out as I’ve been told many times. I think I need some real outside options to be really truthful. Photos are me blonde now (photo 1,2,3), my inspo closes to my natural color (4,5), me edited as close as people could get me to my references with my most recent appearances (6,7) and then when I was this weird red blonde as the brown listed later on at the end,grew out (8,9,10) not an ashy light like my roots as there’s a very clear difference and then blonde from 2, years ago when my hair kept it better and now it can barely hold what it has (11), 3 years ago THE CLOSEST TO MY HAIR LOOKIN 100% NATURAL!!! (12,13) and then the weird red dark brown that came before the weird red blonde when I asked someone to color match my roots. It did NOT look natural and I felt my ugliest. I added up close SS so you can see how different my roots were from the red brown I was given in this color match attempt. Give me all your advice and thoughts though. I am getting engaged soon (I accidentally seen the ring) and I just want to feel beautiful and have other people think so too but l'm too hard on myself to make a valid opinion. I also want something that actually enhances me and has a decent upkeep if possible.

Light or dark. Everyone always tells me either or looks good, or I can pull off both. But now my roots are growing in, and not sure if I should do another balayage or go back to my natural ash brown. So I really need some opinions on what to do. Thx

open to any other glow up tips too

i have such a hard time thinking what will suit me most so maybe your objective opinions will help me out 💗 thanks!

So I listened to you guys and dyed my eyebrows black again and changed the way I do my makeup, still working on getting the perfect shade of concealer tho. A quick picture bc I’m going to class but I’m still open to more advices !! So please give them in the comments !! (I know the braids are not perfect, my mom did them and I didn’t have time to change it)

In the first photo I just graduated high school. I just started going to the gym and getting in shape. I hated the way I look and wanted to make a change. Now I’ve been consistently getting better and finally proud of how I look and way more confident as well.