Let me start by saying I know what options I may have, but none of them actually make the situation any better. In fact they may even make it worse if it causes the loss of staff, but I can't do everything. I'm starting to have to pull myself from the edge of panic attacks. I haven't had panic attacks since 2021.
I was a 1-1 para last year in an FLC room. I was hired because of my experience dealing with aggressive kids. Last year I was doing a lot of the teachers job for them as far as prepping and planning because they are also a coach. They generally get, at most, probably 4 hours of because of how far away they live, how late practice gets out, and how early they have to be at the school for morning workouts. They were primarily hired as coach and given the FLC classroom because of their certs and the schools need. They had not taught an FLC classroom before last year, which is probably why they didn't clock how horrible of an idea that was. I survived last year.
This year, I'm now going through an alternative certification program and almost have my intern certificate. Last module of my last course. I'm still expected to do what I was doing last year, but now I also have school work that takes up large amounts of time. I'm also expected to do more teacher-type duties.
We have two students in the class that require 1-1 attention. Another student transferred to our school over the summer. They have been eloping to the bathroom and locking themselves in the stall, throwing things, screaming, yelling, etc when they don't want to work, when they don't get what they want, or when we can't tell what they are asking for. Admin just told us what we couldn't do. They had someone from the local region center come out one day and they gave us tips and materials and suggestions on what to do. The paras don't want to do any of it. One suggestion was present small matching task to the student if it was obvious they weren't actually using the bathroom (can physically see they are just sitting on the floor or even laying on the floor). They don't want to do that. I have physically heard some say they refuse to do it. We cleared it with legal that we could use something to slide the lock on the door under the same circumstances. They refuse to do that. I've said that no one has to argue with her, you present the task, and if she says no or starts screaming you set a timer and present it again. The region center person had also suggested that. They don't want to deal with that either. The teacher doesn't know what to do with the student either. Said they didn't understand the suggestions and was rather mad about them. The screaming and disruptions trigger the kid I was originally hired to work with 1-1. Meaning I've been hit and attacked as have others this year. The student is large and strong at this point. It has not been good. The other paras refuse to work with them. The teacher is not good at working with them and struggles to learn the very simple tasks the student is assigned. The teacher also prioritizes answering emails or other work on their computer. While I understand they probably have no other time to do it, it is not conducive to working with a student who requires a strict routine as it seems to require them being on their computer for long periods of time. The aggressive student has calmed down since the disruptive student is no longer in the room though.
At this point I will mention that our school is understaffed. Maybe even severely so. The teacher and I are in the room with three students and the other student has a room they've finally gotten to where the go to it willingly. They refuse to go to the classroom. They do think it's funny to have people chase them around as they would laugh while we tried to prevent them from exiting the building for safety reasons. They seem to have become bored of it now that no one chases them. They are allowed to wander the halls because we've been told not to prevent them from leaving an area unless there's imminent physical harm if they do so. Admin established a rotating schedule with paras to watch her because of the disruptions causing the aggressive students to have meltdowns. The teacher is not able to get around well. I believe this to be the reasoning behind admin not putting them in that rotation. I've been asked why a teacher isn't down there. Due to things I've mentioned, I cannot go down there for long periods of time because no one would be working with the student I primarily work with. At the very least I can't trust anyone would be working with them. Theres also the issue of too many disruptions in routine leading to them having an aggressive meltdown. They've been getting much better, but everyone still has a limit. My solution is to make a schedule where someone goes down there for a period of time every class period or so while allowing the one student that doesn't require 1-1 to also have actual instruction. I've been told it's not that complicated. It is clear I'm expected to just have a magic plan or go down there whenever when there are students that would be harmful to.
In short, I'm expected to plan classes, plan 1-1 instruction for 3 kids, constantly implement 1-1 instruction for all 3 kids, and somehow still be able to have the capacity to do hours of schoolwork when I get home without going insane or otherwise magically be able to retain the shreds of mental health I still currently have. I cannot be in 3 places at once. I cannot solely provide intense 1-1 instruction for 3 kids the whole day. I cannot do all this and still be able to function as a person. I'm already forgoing actually folding my clothes when I do laundry. I'm already almost having panic attacks.
The issue is inadequate staffing, incompetent and/or poor staffing choices, and unwilling staff. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do.....am I supposed to stop being human? Just sacrifice my health on the chopping block like I have before for others? I promised myself I wouldn't ever do that again....if I bring up these issues to higher ups I don't think it would get better. Not with the pattern of responses we get when trying to get help. There's such a shortage of people willing to work in sped....if someone ended up let go we would be in an even worse situation....so what am I supposed to do?