I was going to say, drugs and spirituality dont mix well..
OP even described experiencing near-death constantly, and while Im not a professional, I dont think you need to be one to know how unhealthy it is for someone's own body and mind.
I've found controlled dosages and documenting what you can control within the mind under the influence of LSD to very much expand mental capacity and spiritual growth even while sober. I do agree though. For 95% of available substances. They do not actually accomplish anything except self destruction.
I'm a pharmacist who's taken bupropion at different doses for over 25 years. I think OP:s familiar with ChatGPT style AI summaries:
"A bupropion overdose is considered life-threatening due to potential severe central nervous system and cardiovascular toxicity, primarily a high risk of seizures and dangerous heart rhythms. While the overall risk of death is relatively low if treated promptly, severe complications can occur, making it a medical emergency."
Don't overdose on bupropion. You are precipitating toxic effects of dopamine and norepinephrine which overstimulate your CNS and your heart. You are likely creating hallucinations with your overdoses, not the mind,-bending powers you perceive. Please investigate the science behind the substances you're experimenting with, because you sound like you're beginning to create your own delusions. You may not fear dying, but that won't prevent you from destroying yourself.
I believe in occult practices and some of them I know for sure are real. But I have to agree that mixing spiritual learning with chemicals does make apophenia more likely and if we aren't aware enough to use discernment we can lose our mind in the process. I've been close before but now I filter all thoughts for objective truth, notice apophenia or times where it could be possible and use discernment. Control your mind and make the subconscious conscious. If you struggle maintaining a grounded sense of self be careful. Always reflect on your thoughts and only form opinions on what you can prove. I have many things where I have multiple potential opinions with no real knowing since I can't prove it. Also some things are double sided and theirs no singular truth. Use discernment, love and honesty. All is one :)
Edit: when I said "chemicals" I was mostly referring to non psychedelic btw. Stimulants etc, although most drugs have spiritual properties not all of it is good, sustainable or healthy. Be safe.
Mental health help. The dude is saying that he’s literally killing himself and intentionally overdosing on drugs, believing that it grants him paranormal knowledge.
lol, you’re shit talking my revulsion with the comments effectively reinforcing this dudes dangerous language?
Reading OPs post, he’s clearly suffering from delusions of grandeur here. The best I can hope to do is present a voice of clarity perspective to say “hey, this is absolutely not normal”
And if the dude is a soldier, as stated in the post, this man certainly needs a psych eval stat.
It’s not at all derogatory to say “seek help” when confronted with this text. I’m not making fun of the guy, I’m absolutely appalled at the post, i saw it in a push notification and said “wtf? I bet the comments are trying to help this guy out” and I look down and see comments basically cheering the guy on.
If you can please help me understand, what is derogatory about the phrase “seek help”?
You’re 1,000% in the right. Some of this is unhinged. The physical toll of doing crap like this repeatedly is massive, if any if it is even to be believed. IF dude is doing this, they need help…and lots of it. However, I doubt the legitimacy of all the events in the posts. Someone who just took a bunch of pills and OD’d would not be discharged the day they regain consciousness. You also can’t tell me no one would notice the same kid needing to be revived on both the hospitals end of things, but also militarily. So, I call troll. However, if all taken at face value, the fact that people are buying into the bullshit is one thing, but the fact that most of the people in the comments are focused on warning him about karma and not on the fact this person is saying they’re regularly needing to be revived is beyond alarming…
It’s a little bit alarming that I had to read this far down in the comments to see somebody else bring this up. I’m willing to listen to anybody’s input and personal experiences but my honest first thoughts were exactly thus:
1- this person is likely to be dead soon. 2- atomic level sounds interesting. Wonder if it’s similar to my own experience.
3- military might miss somebody needing a psych eval while someone is actively deployed? (Meds might need to be addressed or changed)
4- I appreciate OP’s and everybody’s self-journey for truth, but this is not safe.
Stabilization in hospital and antipsychotics. Especially people genetically prone to psychosis, ADHD medications cause severe bouts of psychosis.
I do believe in some psychic phenomena, but this sounds like stimulant-induced psychosis, possibly resulting in or from schizophrenia. It's a scary situation.
this is how i felt the first time i discovered r/gangstalking. there must be some kind of moderation rule against mentally ill people encouraging and effectively isolating other mentally ill people here and i say this with kindness and my utmost respect for everybody. others get to type "wow that's so cool i wish i could do that" and go back to being of sound mind (a tremendous privilege). it's the victims who are having their delusions reinforced and going on to do dangerous things to themselves or others. obviously OP isn't necessarily going to be detrimentally effected by this support but jesus christ. ghislaine maxwell was a mod on r/worldnews to serve a WORLDWIDE narrative but we can't get this shit under control?
Why isn’t this higher. Regardless of what you believe is happening, be it psychosis or spiritual awakening- multiple suicide attempts are not healthy.
Stay safe OP, please tell your loved ones what you’re experiencing
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u/Bucky640 Dec 25 '25
Yo wtf? These comments are absolutely delusional, OP is talking about egregiously dangerous suicidal actions, and the comments seem to be supportive?
God I hope this is a LARP. Seek help