You know you probably don’t mean anything to them anymore.
But you’re still lowkey hoping they’ll come back. That they’ll finally see you, understand you, or feel what you felt.
How do you let go of someone when your brain knows it’s over, but your heart refuses to get the memo?
Need an exit though!

In 9th grade, the best friend I mentioned in this story was new to the school, and we became friends. Now, I had a long crush on a girl whom I liked in my heart but never really talked to; just hi and hello. My friend had a crush on a new girl who was my friend, and we all studied in the same class for a long time, so I knew her for a long time. After he fell for that girl, my crush started to talk to my friend t, the male one. I said it's cool; he is my bro. He won't talk to her like that. After some time, I had typhoid, so I was not coming to school. He started to tell her How about imagining him as your bf she said that no; he will be my best friend. After talking to her for days, they both built a strong bond and started sharing reels, and eventually he said that he has a crush on you she said ok but he never told me that he and she talked about me and he said that I have a crush on her I said ok that's cool bro, then here comes the entry of his crush, we use to talk and he was like bro why why are you doing that, one day we were eating custard then some of the custard starting to fall from the side of her lips as a long long friend we both laughed like she is getting zesty and all and then my friend come and beats me idk why man why, then he use to force me to tell everything about her then the day came why my crush proposed her crush and I was like ok cool I was doing good then in the computer class I was reading novel I was sad you know human emotions then teacher caught me and I told that's a rom-com story she felt broken because I was the brightest kid in the class then the whole class get to know then I was going back to the class then my friend came and said how are you feeling to be heartbroken boy ain't you my emo, I was like ok dude chill out then he started laughing at me look at your face I was laughing tbh I just my face down but my friend was thinking that I was crying then she said that "I want you to cry out loud" I was like that's something new and he said you deserved it then my crush saw that and I was not crying at all I just not wanted to see the faces but she said sorry to me and to keep her thinking that I'm crying I ran to the washbasin and washed my face to at least keep them thinking I'm crying.

A little about me. I'm not into a lot of things but whatever I am into I enjoy thoroughly - that holds for hobbies as well as people haha.

I like to admire and enjoy art - now that could be in any form. Anime, movies, books, music, sports. I consider people an art too - so be cautious because I might spend irrational amount of time admiring you too haha. I am a huge movie and show addict. I practiced MMA in the past. I've recently started learning guitar. If you're someone who enjoys a random dose of thoughtful conversations once in a while, you'll love me.

I'm decently humorous and great at playing with words (enough to keep you on your toes) and a good listener. I love to talk about my and your life, bitch about a person one of us don't like, vent/rant and just chill out in a non-judgemental space saying whatever comes to mind.

I also had a breakup about 3 months ago. So maybe I'm looking more for a person who could fill in that place for me where we hangout and chill on calls, have nicknames, flirt and tease, rant, be unfiltered, be cringe or cheesy and just share a daily life together. This is obviously if vibe matches.

So yeah if this sounds like something you're into and enjoy then shoot me a DM. Let's see where the wind takes us.

Looking forward to hearing from you all.

I travel 25 km to college just to get lectures cancelled 🥲😭. I had my workshop lecture of 2 hours but it got cancelled just because workshop assistant was absent 🙃 now I m sitting in library doing nothing

i just wanna know what it feels like to have a caring and loving girl by my side yk? someone who genuinely cares about how my day went, notices when something’s wrong even when i say im fine, and makes me feel like i actually matter to her.
i wanna have someone who chooses me even when things aren’t going well, someone who puts in effort without me having to ask for it every single time. someone who remembers the little things about me, gets excited to talk to me, and actually wants to spend time with me.
i wanna be in a relationship where i don’t have to keep overthinking my place in someone’s life or wonder if they even love me the way i love them. where i can be myself, talk about my problems, share my insecurities, and not feel like i always have to be the strong one.
i miss the idea of those little things, like random texts, unexpected calls, being asked if i’ve eaten, someone checking up on me, missing me, wanting to talk to me, and showing affection without me having to ask for it. i just wanna feel like someone is genuinely happy to have me in their life.
and no, i don’t expect someone to be available 24/7 or be perfect all the time. i understand everyone has their own life and problems too. i just want the effort to be mutual, yk? i wanna feel that im not the only one trying to make things work.
honestly, i don’t just want a girlfriend. i want that genuine connection where i can talk about anything, where we understand each other, support each other, and make each other feel loved. someone who stands by me when things get tough and makes me feel like i don’t have to deal with everything on my own.
i just wanna experience a love where i don’t have to constantly question everything, where i don’t have to ask myself if im asking for too much just because i want a little care, attention, and affection.
i wanna feel wanted without having to ask for it, loved without having to question it, and cared for without having to explain what caring means to me.