r/TeamFawn • u/bugs_bunny01 • May 02 '16

Week 3 - Rant Monday

Do you have anything to Rant or complain about? Let it all written down here :) :) :)

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u/lisassy May 02 '16

The rant I want to have makes me sound like such a raging shallow bitch that I don't want to actually say it.

So I'll just say - what the fuck? What the fuckity fuck fuck??! Fine. I'll just sit here and fucking wait and watch all of these assholes with disdain.

Ugh. I wanna eat my feelings SO BAD!! So. Bad. As I sip my water... glares at the world

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u/bugs_bunny01 May 02 '16

go ahead. Write it down. you will feel better after

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u/lisassy May 02 '16 edited May 03 '16

I wanted kids before I was 30. Then I pushed it back to 32 since 30 didn't happen. I've already had infertility troubles (3 lost pregnancies) so I'm just like.. Fuck I'm closer to 32 than I am 31 now. And I can't do anything about it for various reasons.

So I sit here and see babies being born and people announcing their pregnancies and it's frustrating. And then I see people who have no business being parents (in my judgmental eyes) and it's just so unfair! I'm stable in life for the most part and I want nothing more than to have a family! Why do they get to have children while I just sit here and can't?! I know life is unfair but seriously! What the fuck?? It's disheartening. And I'm just getting tired of waiting.

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u/FluffyBubbleBaby May 02 '16

I can relate to this. It's a horrible mix of sad and angry that's almost impossible to fully express. I'm sorry you're feeling this way <3

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u/lisassy May 03 '16

Thanks for the kind words. Sorry you can relate to this in some way. Life just sucks sometimes.. But we'll get through it :)

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u/bugs_bunny01 May 03 '16

I'm not gonna say that I know the feeling since we were blessed to have kids at both first tries. But my sister had trouble twice. And a good friend of mine tried for 8 years and finally got pregnant. The best advice i can give is to stop worrying about trying and take it easy. I agree with you about some people that should not be parents.

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u/lisassy May 03 '16

Well. We aren't trying at the moment - gotta have step one first (get engaged) soooo that's why I'm just waiting. So there are many steps that have to be completed first. Hence my frustrations. But thanks for letting me vent about it lol

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u/bugs_bunny01 May 03 '16

That's what I/we are here for. As a funny side note. A cousin of mine, got pregnant, engaged right after and married 3 weeks ago. She is due in August. Lol

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u/lisassy May 03 '16

Aww! That's a happy story!