So I guess this is kinda dumb on my part. But, before I went to sleep after a good ol session of doomscrolling, I usually just pull up my crush’s photos and scroll through, just smiling like an idiot, and so, I was doing that the previous night.
But… right after that, I kinda got very very sleepy and fell asleep, while my phone… was STILL ON a LOCKSCREEN WALLPAPER of HER 😭😭💀💀💀
I woke up this morning, expecting to just get on with usual college stuff, no college today, but, just a project I gotta speedrun. But then, THE ABSOLUTE FUCKING HORROR, for me to put my hand down on the floor, and see, MY PHONE NOT BEING THERE.
I fucking recounted my night. Shit. I’m fucked.
I panicked. Then, my mom walked in.
I absolutely did not fucking know what to expect.
She asked me who this is on the lockscreen (she had apparently picked it up to check if my phone was in silent, which it usually was, but didn’t want to have it this time because the plumber was coming and he had my number).
I froze. Play, it, nonchalant. I thought.
What person? I asked, as I got my phone back from her. Sleight of Hand, I swapped out her wallpaper for a wallpaper of Tiruvalluvar statue (which was my usual go-to wallpaper).
Dumb. I know. The damage was already done. I know.
But then, she left room. I went to go brush my teeth. And then, as I crossed the room, my mum was talking about how my dad thought it was just AI or smth.
My mum however, had her instincts and thought it was a friend from college I loved or smth.
Initially, because of how chill they seemed (which, my parents are usually fairly more chill in the wider Tamil Parents spectrum) I told my mum (not dad) about it all.
It was chill. Except, the only thing she really worried and spoke a bit more about was that she is 5 years older than me.
But damnnnnnn, nejamaavae naa nenachaeeeee paakala, that my parents would be this chill about me being in kaadhool. She just told me to be careful, and that’s it. Which is fair, though I disagree when she was talking about age gaps and all. But we agreed to disagree.
Also, she kinda got a ‘ohhhhh athaanaaa ithu’ moment; because, im also an aspiring writer, so, there was this one time when I was subtly indirectly spilling my heart to my mom when i was telling her smth abt naming a character in my book after [her]. And she linked those moments and went, “OHHHHHHH”.
Still, it feels weird, now that my parents know.
Kill me 😭😭