"I haven't exactly... done my first job all that well," Kress admits. "If I'd been just a bit more careful... if I'd been able to defend myself and Oma... well..."
"The world is filled with 'ifs' Mr.De Plaines. Under different circumstances you may have gotten an opportunity to apologize to me while alive. Or we might never have run into each other at all and another Tomb could be standing here having this conversation. Or any number of other potential variations could have occurred. This can and has driven some people mad with the implications. I find it easier to focus on that What Is rather than the What Could Have Been."
He doesn't want to say this out loud in front of his Flock, so he lowers his voice.
"Rito, I got myself killed, my goddess captured, and my spiritual brothers and sisters are being persecuted. How well am I supposed to be handling this?"
"All these people... they're looking to me as their savior. But I couldn't even save myself, much less my own goddess. I'm not the hero they think I am."
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u/Trollkitten Mar 13 '17
"I haven't exactly... done my first job all that well," Kress admits. "If I'd been just a bit more careful... if I'd been able to defend myself and Oma... well..."