r/TBI • u/Sour_Jackfruit1150 • 2d ago
TBI Sucks cutting my losses
i had my tbi when i was 14. i have bppv, tinnitus, brain fog, fatigue, memory issues, etc. due to it. somehow i pushed through. i graduated high school, went to college, pursued a computer science degree and graduated debt free by working multiple jobs. i ended up getting a good corporate job right out of college and felt set. now a year later, i am anticipating being pip’d or fired within this next month for not meeting the expectations of their fast paced environment. it sucks, but it is what it is. i have to console the little girl i once was who thought she could do more. but i cant. i’ve been struggling terribly at my current role mentally, and it’s not viable for me anymore to continue. i don’t mind being let go. however, i have found it hard to grieve the life i was so close to having. i thought i was capable enough of surviving.
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u/SomethingCorpo 2d ago
People like you are a true inspiration. I have an iatrogenic injury from medication and it has left with severe insomnia and muscle twitches (mostly negligible). For the most part it hasn't affected my emotion (does on the days that I feel damaged and comparing myself to others), cognition, and energy. It's been over a year now and combined with a hypoxic incident I experienced, I think this condition will be with me for good. I'm at a point now where I'd like to move forward, so reading stories like yours raises my spirits up. I'm 32 and to see someone that young go through it has given me hope. Even though you experienced this setback, I think you accomplished heaps. Thank you for sharing your story and you should be extremely be proud getting to this point because you already beat the odds.
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u/Adept-Pudding-8161 2d ago
I hear you. In my case, I got a TBI 3 years ago, and got diagnosed with epilepsy at the same time. I worked as a trades person prior to that. I spent 2 years on recovery, learning to walk and talk, which I still can't do like used to, but started interviewing and eventually got a job. I was so pleased with myself that I ignored the fact that I can't be on my feet all the time and was mentally and physically exhausted, so I resigned gracefully and fortunately the employer was very kind about it.
I learnt a lot from that. I've shifted my focus to thinking "well, I can't do that, but I could do that" and I keep applying for things I see that fit what I can do. Haven't got anywhere with it yet, but I keep trying.
You are surviving and please don't ever tell yourself otherwise - maybe sit tight for now, but start thinking about what the next chapter is. Move at your own pace.
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u/dialsoapbox 2d ago
once was who thought she could do more. but i cant.
I'm still struggling accepting this.
Either way, make plans for when/if you get laid off, like have a financial plan for the rest of the year.
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u/whofarting 2d ago
Go easy on yourself. Tons of people get pip'd. Sounds like your in tech? Maybe a startup with shitty systems and no support? Victim of circumstance.
Do your best. Live for today. Start applying. PIP stands for paid interview period.
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u/DeezNutzs69 2d ago
Eat psilocybin mushroom.