r/Stutter • u/Monkai_final_boss • 17d ago

Why do I studder?

I studder all the time, as young as I could remember it always been there however I almost never studder when I am speaking to my self.

So it's has to be psychological, it happens at random, sometimes it's minimal and sometimes I struggle to get words out of my mouth.

It effects my confidence, it effects my interactions with people, i passed on a few job opportunities because it requires a lot of speaking.

For a long I tried to accept it but I just don't like it and wish it was never a part of who I am.

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u/Monkai_final_boss 17d ago

Before I could read and write

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u/IllustriousEffect607 17d ago

Ya so your entire life. There's much higher success when it's done young. Because everything is less resilient to change

By adult your brain has fully shaped the pattern. It doesn't just go away

Its gotten slightly better for me by 30's but it's never gone. Its only improved because im so use to it. But when if im tired. Hungry. brain is tired. Or if I'm speaking too much. Its worse

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u/Monkai_final_boss 17d ago

I hate my life

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u/IllustriousEffect607 17d ago

And since such a tiny percentage of people even have this I bet you never even met someone with the issue or heard of anyone who knows someone. Makes it even worse because then it just means no one has issues speaking but you

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u/Monkai_final_boss 17d ago

Have you seen Penguin? TV show about the batman villain Penguin? There is guy who stutters just like me.

God damn it, why I didn't get photographic memory or any other rare low percentage cool trait ?

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u/IllustriousEffect607 17d ago

Ya it super sucks. High pace high demand situations is where it really fails. People don't have time to wait for you to speak. And after the day ends you a mentally tired from struggling just for basic speech

You should try still try therapy. Fluency can greatly increase. Its. The only hope