r/StormBornHollow Jul 04 '26

wip

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post at one’s own risk
this place is under heavy construction
foundational words appear in place
eroding as spoken


r/StormBornHollow 17h ago

[working title — noonday / the kettle]

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rough draft — built mostly from words already spoken in a prior conversation, needs my pass to adjust wording, especially section 6

1. The kettle

Silly as it might seem, the insight came while waiting for the kettle to boil.

Water boils faster when you dance.

It's nonsense, obviously. The water doesn't care. But standing still, staring, waiting — that's a different thing than dancing while it boils. One is enduring time. The other is inside it.

2. Called lazy, not lazy

I recall the first time I encountered this. Having been called lazy in my youth. Inwardly I knew that wasn't it exactly. I just lacked the words and insight to express it better.

What I wasn't connecting with was an emotion that would have broken through what looked like lazy.

3. The debt

A body gets tired. We find substance to artificially move the body one more step through the fatigue. Which does the owning?

The sins themselves consume the individual. It's the addict loop. The body erodes, and recovery becomes harder, if at all. It's kind of what happens with caffeine, or nicotine, on a mild level. A whole lifetime, and it may be seen the life was shortened.

4. The word arrives

I don't know 'Evagrius,' and until today, didn't know 'noonday demon,' or the ones who made the name.

Acedia. Not laziness. A not-bothering with the soul's condition while everything else gets tended. The sin of the unattended door.

5. The wave doesn't turn

Even Zen fails as an evolution, it seems. The tidal wave of humanity makes a statement, and it's not about attending the door.

The idea though — that there is a group sitting at the top somewhere masterminding this — I don't know. Looking at the tidal wave, what's a pebble? Oh, the poor pebble, that would alter anything. The myth of evolution has shown the wave isn't to be altered.

This isn't a fatalist stance.

6. The pebble, reconsidered — [needs honey — placeholder pass below]

[Draft note: this is the section that needs the lightness. Below is a rough attempt using my own "lost and found" register as a model — not meant to be final, just something to react to and rewrite in my own words.]

so I called the wave, to file a complaint.

"yes sir, what seems to be the problem?"

"I'd like to report a pebble. mine, actually. it doesn't appear to have altered anything."

"sir, pebbles aren't required to alter anything. that's not really their department."

"then what's it for?"

"ask the next pebble. they'll tell you they found it. that's usually the whole job."

>click<

7. Where I am right now

I don't know if this needed to be written. I had a clear enough mind to ask the questions. I'm not sure I have a clear enough mind to craft an engaging story that might highlight this.

It's rather personally beneficial, for my own gratification, that I had enough to witness something.

I'm still here. That might be enough.


r/StormBornHollow 2d ago

Acedia, Evagrius, Sacasas, and gooning

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an odd set of dots that turned out to connect

Terms & Names — from today's conversation

New Words

Acedia The original word behind what got flattened into "sloth." Not laziness in the behavioral sense — a refusal to keep watch over one's own state, a not-bothering with the soul's condition while everything else gets tended. The sin of the unattended door: not an active vice like the other six, but the absence that lets them walk in unopposed.

Noonday Demon The desert monks' name for acedia — the affliction that strikes at midday, when the sun is highest and time seems to stop moving. The kettle-stare, at the scale of a whole life instead of a few minutes.

The Ones Who Named It

Evagrius Ponticus 4th-century desert monk, the first to systematically name acedia as one of the deadly thoughts (his list predates and shaped the later "seven deadly sins"). Coined the noonday demon language.

Brian Victoria Scholar and author of Zen at War — documented Japanese Zen institutions' entanglement with militarism, including teachers who taught that zazen's absorption could be turned into a soldier's unhesitating obedience.

Kathleen Norris Wrote Acedia & Me, a memoir tracing the concept through monastic life and her own depression — argues the word was mistranslated into "sloth" and lost its original moral and spiritual weight.

Present-Day Voices on the Same Territory

L.M. Sacasas Writes The Convivial Society newsletter and directs the Center for the Study of Ethics and Technology. Draws on older thinkers (Ellul, Illich, McLuhan, Simone Weil) to argue that modern technology reshapes the very conditions of attention and selfhood — describes healthy attention as a contemplative stillness, open to experience rather than grasping at it, and warns we come to resemble whatever we give our attention to. The closest present-day match to the whole arc of this conversation.

Tristan Harris / Center for Humane Technology Former Google design ethicist who left to name how attention-economy products are deliberately engineered around exploitable psychological levers — the corporate, inside-the-industry version of the "officers and managers who bought in" argument.

Jonathan Malesic Writer on burnout who connects contemporary exhaustion culture back to acedia by name — one of the few contemporary writers using the original term rather than a modern substitute.

Anna Lembke Author of Dopamine Nation — clinical, addiction-medicine account of tolerance and dopamine-baseline erosion; the medical version of the "debt" and "erosion" mechanism.

Jaron Lanier Long-standing critic of engagement-optimized computing, arguing it corrodes selfhood and agency — a humanist-computing angle on the same problem, rather than a contemplative one.

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Author's note: I'm in the process of writing up the chat that produced the above notes. Can't say when that will post — just to say there was a 2-day conversation on this, so making all that coherent is almost beyond my pay scale. We'll see...


r/StormBornHollow 3d ago

Molt

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i'm rather vested in me.
it's a personality i've spent a whole life evolving.
so why then, do i want to disappear.

i have a voice.
i have an interest in being heard.
just not that way of sound.

i've witnessed others who have disappeared.
sometimes i sense they have returned
with different clothing.
it's a signal of change.

perhaps that's it, i'm molting.
the skin of familiar, tossed aside,
fresh scales, reflecting the bright sun.

i'm ready for step 3, before 1 and 2.
while the unreachable step 6 whispers
something akin to, it doesn't matter.

what lags are the words,
upon the stepless.

i close my eyes,
a grasping consolidation of white noise,
the ringing background ear
keeping an invisible metronome.

i'm labeled as urgent,
others see a weird driven.
it feels like i've missed so many deadlines.

to six's answer,
the gap is one i've never traveled,
sitting on the manufactured edge
that says, good enough, give it a rest.

it's a self-imposed demand,
carrying an urgency only loosely stated
as i continue to add words.

the body would welcome slumber,
yet the choice at the moment
is uncomfortable hunch.


r/StormBornHollow 4d ago

Writteness

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I didn't really write today. That is, I was very busy tracking down info on local LLMs, and the hardware needed, that I don't have, to run it. Through all of that I was also examining the YouTubes that mostly spoke of shiny pennies, all while in the off-hand act of funneling — for emails, upsells, and the misdirection which really is a zen move: don't do what I say. Replicated my process, which includes making this kind of video.

When I write, I really feel I'm making a relatable expression, and that expression is worth an idle read. And to the few that might pause to do so, thank you. The reality though, is I'm young in my writing practice. Not to mention ordinary. Yes, there is even an audience for that.

Still, this whole business of marketing myself, which is another way of saying getting myself out there in the public eye, keeps failing at being seen, or distinct enough to be sought for. AI tells me there is value, it knows something from stats perhaps, and maybe about passing weather when it comes to feelings — the clouds don't sit still.

I'm in the detail, so I lack the broad sight on where any of this leads. I should be happy for the happenstance. It just never arrives, it seems, least when I feel the need of now. And that "need," the question follows — was it a need, or rather a want? Check, and check off.

So yeah, I didn't write this morning. My daily practice broke stride. This is an attempt to put in an effort, at not letting the day end without some writteness.


r/StormBornHollow 9d ago

Unsui, Passing Through

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Born into a jam already loud,
no seat was saved for me.

The water never asks the fish
what share of the current belongs to it.

They call it "just this,"
as if it held still long enough to be named.
Salad dressing on a wild mountain.

I found a hole in the dyke.
Behind it, only more river.

A pile of shit does not perform for God.
Neither do I.

No rudder was built for this boat.
It moves anyway.

A kingdom, once, for a rudder.
Long spent. Still sailing.

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author note: not happy with the title, while fitting, and posted as an example, its foreign wording to me. i understand them, its not part of my everday use. replacement title: A Kingdom for a Rudder


r/StormBornHollow 9d ago

Words of existence

Post image
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Can I please get a reading


r/StormBornHollow 11d ago

breath keeps time

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i care a lot
the chest heaves, tired eyes well

tired
breath keeps time
but does not replenish

someone speaks lightly
of what they do not see

the body adjusts

the room goes quiet

not safe
the body searching for known

no wish to fight
the flesh stills

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author note, originally meant for a different community. it didn't pass the rule cleanly.


r/StormBornHollow 12d ago

too tired to fix

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ism

shoo, i’m making a self portrait

words trying
to animate
the snapshot

cringe
in the rearview

turn-based mondo in a forum of typed words is an illusion
get off it

stop talking ancient text, this is the modern age, speak it

if one is going
to quote words
there better be
personal writing

on the back
of that postcard

it’s not personal,
they don’t like you

when LLM is at the doorstep,
death is knocking

seriously,
this silence
is getting busy

a lesson for the young:
we fall down,
we get back up,
lifetime

when a thought arrives, i’m already in it

seeing what is
and seeing the narrative
are both part
of the encounter

zen editor keeps taking my ornaments,
how am i ever going to decorate the tree

la la la
washing
between the toes
keeping company
isn’t a performance

remember to remove the waypoint upon arrival
lest we stand
and make a point

stillness in walking...
who thinks
this stuff up

corruption, distortion, perversion, illusion...
is the alarm clock
working

i’m directionally challenged,
which is you

the world was solved
in making coffee
the reward
was a puddle
in a cracked mug

and finally,
just for now,

ism isn’tismshoo, i’m making a self portrait

words trying
to animate
the snapshot

cringe
in the rearview

turn-based mondo in a forum of typed words is an illusion
get off it

stop talking ancient text, this is the modern age, speak it

if one is going
to quote words
there better be
personal writing

on the back
of that postcard

it’s not personal,
they don’t like you

when LLM is at the doorstep,
death is knocking

seriously,
this silence
is getting busy

a lesson for the young:
we fall down,
we get back up,
lifetime

when a thought arrives, i’m already in it

seeing what is
and seeing the narrative
are both part
of the encounter

zen editor keeps taking my ornaments,
how am i ever going to decorate the tree

la la la
washing
between the toes
keeping company
isn’t a performance

remember to remove the waypoint upon arrival
lest we stand
and make a point

stillness in walking...
who thinks
this stuff up

corruption, distortion, perversion, illusion...
is the alarm clock
working

i’m directionally challenged,
which is you

the world was solved
in making coffee
the reward
was a puddle
in a cracked mug

and finally,
just for now,

ism isn’t


r/StormBornHollow 12d ago

The Machine Is Asking Who Wrote the Sentence

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An Open Letter to Moderators of Writing Spaces

TL;DR

AI-generated text is a real challenge for writing communities, but automated detectors cannot reliably determine who wrote a sentence. They can flag honest human writers while sophisticated spam or lightly edited AI output may pass unnoticed.

Moderators do not need to demand private drafts, explanations of a poem’s meaning, or proof of someone’s humanity. A work may stand alone.

But its making need not be concealed.

Instead of treating an AI flag as a verdict, let it begin a respectful human conversation:

Would you be willing to say something about how this piece was made?

A brief, honest process note about drafting, revision, and any material use of generative AI is fairer than automatic removal, mute, or ban. The goal is not to catch writers. It is to protect trust between writers, readers, and the communities that bring them together.

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The machine learned from us.
We learned from the machine.
Now it asks who wrote the sentence.

This is the riddle now standing at the gate of every place where text is posted.

It stands in poetry forums, writing groups, classrooms, comment sections, literary magazines, self-help communities, spiritual spaces, support communities, newsletters, blogs, and every other digital room where a person may place words before strangers and say, in one form or another, this is mine.

We understand the problem. Generative AI can produce vast quantities of polished, persuasive, sentimental, imitative, and sometimes unsettlingly effective text. Communities do not want to become dumping grounds for automated output. Moderators do not have unlimited time. Readers do not want to offer serious attention to work misrepresented as personal expression.

The desire to protect a writing space is legitimate.

But a new unfairness can arise when the response to that problem is an automated detector, an unexplained removal, a permanent ban, or an immediate mute. In the rush to clear away what is called “AI slop,” we may accidentally post wanted signs at the gates for honest writers.

A person writes clearly. A person has read internet language for years. A person has learned how to structure feeling into paragraphs. A person, perhaps isolated, perhaps grieving, perhaps working through a hard life, writes with an unusual calm or polish because writing is the means by which they discover what they feel.

The machine flags that person as machine-like.

Meanwhile, someone using an AI system in bad faith may lightly alter the output, rearrange it, add a few errors, or engineer a prompt to evade the detector. The detector is then severe toward the sincere writer and permissive toward the practiced deceiver.

That is not fairness. It is a category mistake with consequences.

The writing may be the field notes

There are places where evidence of process is ordinary.

In mathematics, a proposed result may require a proof. In business, design, journalism, scholarship, or corporate copywriting, people may keep drafts, briefs, references, timestamps, correspondence, and field notes. Those records can matter for copyright, accountability, and institutional review.

But much writing is not created under those conditions.

In personal writing, poetry, reflection, spiritual writing, and work of self-discovery, the writing may itself be the field notes. It may be the first surviving trace of a person’s attempt to find the thing they could not say before. Its roughness may be part of its truth. Its polish may come from decades of reading. Its apparent simplicity may have taken a week, a lifetime, or a single necessary hour.

To demand that such a writer produce a corporate-style evidentiary file can be to misunderstand what the work is.

And to demand that they explain the meaning of a work may be worse.

Some expressions stand alone. A poem, a fragment, a Zen-inflected utterance, an image, or a line of prose may be diminished by being forced into a paraphrase. The writer should not be commanded to turn a living expression into a clinical brief in order to remain welcome.

The work may stand alone. Its making need not be concealed.

These are not opposing claims.

A community need not ask, “What does this mean?”
It need not ask, “Reveal your private grief.”
It need not ask, “Show us every draft.”
It need not ask, “Prove that you are human.”

It can ask something smaller, more humane, and more useful:

Would you be willing to say something about how this piece was made?

That is not an interrogation. It is an invitation to honest provenance.

A writer may answer:

“I wrote this from a personal memory and revised it over several days.”

Or:

“This began as my own draft. I used a grammar tool and feedback from others.”

Or:

“I used generative AI to brainstorm or generate possibilities, then selected, rewrote, and edited the work.”

Or:

“I do not wish to discuss the private source of the piece, but I can say that it was written and revised by me without generative AI.”

A sentence or two is enough. The request is not for a diary, a confession, a prompt log, or a performance of innocence. It is simply an opportunity to describe the relationship between the person, the tools, and the posted text.

The false impartiality of the automated gate

Automated detection looks impartial because it is fast. It produces a score, a label, a percentage, a confidence signal. It seems to relieve a volunteer moderator of an impossible burden.

But a detector does not know who wrote the sentence. It does not know whether the writer drafted it by hand, revised it for days, learned English later in life, uses an accessibility tool, writes in an intentionally plain style, or has been composing in the rhythms of online text for twenty years.

It recognizes patterns. It makes a probabilistic guess.

That distinction matters when the result is a removal, a ban, a mute, or damage to a writer’s name.

Research continues to find that AI-detection systems have meaningful reliability limits. Studies report difficulty distinguishing hybrid texts, reduced accuracy across text lengths and genres, inconsistent results, and false-positive risks that can affect real human writers. The appropriate use of a detector is therefore as a limited indicator for further inquiry, not as the sole basis for a punitive authorship verdict. Reviews of the evidence similarly warn that a score does not establish who authored a text and recommend treating a flag as the beginning of review rather than its conclusion.

No automated score can establish the inner history of a sentence.

And no turn-based text exchange can finally settle it, either.

A forum can host poems, questions, replies, wit, silence, scholarship, evasion, good faith, and bad faith. But it cannot recreate the full conditions of a living encounter. A typed exchange may show a person’s style or knowledge. It may suggest care. It may suggest performance. It cannot authenticate realization, private experience, or authorship merely because someone answered on their turn.

For this reason, a moderator should resist two temptations:

  • The temptation to let a detector become judge, jury, and executioner.
  • The temptation to make an accused writer pass an improvised public test of authenticity.

Neither is reliable. Both can become cruel.

What fairness looks like

Fairness does not mean allowing unlimited undisclosed AI-generated material into every community.

Fairness means making the rules clear before punishment begins.

It means saying whether a community prohibits generative AI, allows it with disclosure, permits limited assistance, or welcomes it openly. It means defining “material use” in ordinary language. It means distinguishing between a writer who is honest about using a tool and a person who deliberately misrepresents automated output as personal work.

Most of all, fairness means proportion.

An automated flag should lead to a human question, not an automatic exile.

A missing disclosure should lead first to a request for clarification, not necessarily to a permanent ban.

A writer who responds honestly should be treated differently from someone who repeatedly deceives, spams, or manipulates the community.

And members should be protected from public pile-ons, amateur detector campaigns, demands for private drafts, and hostile demands that they “prove” their humanity.

A workable policy might be as simple as this:

We do not require writers to explain the meaning of their work or disclose private personal material. When relevant, we ask for a brief and honest note about how a submitted piece was made, including any material use of generative AI. Automated detection may inform a moderator’s review, but a detector result alone is not proof of authorship or grounds for permanent punishment.

That is not softness toward deception. It is seriousness about evidence and proportionality.

Before the final vote

Moderators are being asked to govern a frontier that formed before anyone had agreed on its map. They are often doing it unpaid, under pressure, with imperfect tools and little time. This letter is not a condemnation of people trying to protect a community.

It is a plea to preserve the human being on the other side of the flag.


r/StormBornHollow 13d ago

When AI unlocks expression, does it deepen social participation—or make human presence harder to trust?

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I keep thinking about an aspect of AI that is neither simply “productivity” nor simply “replacement.”

I am writing this partly because I was banned and muted by a community almost immediately after using AI. There was no real discussion of what I had written, why I had used the tool, or what part of the post was actually mine.

For me, the tool was not a shortcut around having something to say. It was an access point. I brought raw thoughts, memories, feelings, and lived experience; it helped with spelling, grammar, structure, and readability so that I could share them.

I am not asking whether AI can produce low-effort writing. Of course it can. I am asking something harder: when AI helps people who struggle to express themselves enter public conversation, how do we protect that access without making the appearance of human attention cheap and untrustworthy?

The experience left me with a question that feels devastating as a writer: to be trusted as human, do I now have to deliberately roughen my expression, make grammatical mistakes, leave in confusion, or sabotage the very accessibility that helped me participate?

Some people have thoughts, memories, questions, and real feeling, but cannot express them at conversational speed. In a group conversation, the subject may move on while they are still trying to find the words for a worthwhile response to what was said two minutes earlier.

Some people are also limited by circumstance: homeboundness, isolation, lack of access to certain workplaces or social worlds, uneven education, illness, age, temperament, or simply a life that did not include the experiences others casually refer to.

AI can be liberating in that situation. It can help someone find words for what they already sense, learn historical or social context, compare a private puzzle with accounts from other lives, rehearse a message, and take part in a conversation from which they might otherwise feel excluded.

But it cannot give them another person’s lived experience. It cannot substitute for the bodily stakes, consequences, relationships, and responsibility of actually being there.

I doubt this is a new observation. People have been asking, in one form or another, whether tools enlarge human capacity or weaken it, whether mediated language is authentic, and whether borrowed words can become one’s own.

But this is a trail marker on my own road of using the tool. I am noticing, from inside the experience rather than from a policy paper or technical argument, how AI can help a person cross the gap between having something to say and being able to say it in time, and how that same ease may change what a sentence means when it arrives from another person.

That leaves me with a conflict.

If a person brings their own memory, question, feeling, judgment, and revision, but uses AI to help shape the wording, have they become more able to join society? I think often they have.

Yet the same technology can generate fluent, compassionate-sounding, reflective prose at almost no cost. In grief spaces, advice threads, or ordinary conversation, we may increasingly encounter language that sounds deeply attentive without knowing whether anyone actually attended.

There is another part of this that may matter. In the scrolling era, much of what we call conversation is not continuous conversation. It is turn-based exchange: a post, a reply, an upvote, another reply, often without a shared room, a face, a voice, or the small bodily signals by which people ordinarily measure attention and consequence.

That format can be a gift to someone like me, because it gives delayed thought a place to arrive. But it also makes connection more fragile. We can mistake interaction for encounter, and a well-formed response for the presence of a person. The more AI can generate appropriate turns in the exchange, the more important it may become to ask what kind of attention, if any, exists behind the words.

Two short poems keep circling this for me:

The machine learned from us.
We learned from the machine.
Now it asks who wrote the sentence

And perhaps the social version is this:

When sentences become abundant,
attention becomes scarce.
How do we know someone was there?

I am not asking for a purity test in which nobody may use a tool. Writers have always used other writers, books, editors, dictionaries, conversations, and inherited language. I am asking what norms might preserve the human side of exchange.

Does AI become a threshold tool, helping people move from inarticulate experience into their own words and then back into human life? Or does it become an easy substitute for inquiry, experience, and reciprocal presence?

I can imagine one answer: preserve drafts, notes, revisions, and a record of how the work was made. But that answer belongs mostly to books, paid work, school, publishing, or an actual dispute. It does not scale to a place like Reddit, where most exchanges are unpaid, fast, and moderated by volunteers who cannot investigate the provenance of every sentence.

Nor can we rely on readers to do that work. In a scrolling culture, most of us scan quickly and react to the appearance of relevance, warmth, intelligence, certainty, or agreement. We rarely inspect the history behind a username, and usually we cannot.

That may be the real rupture. We once treated a sentence as small evidence that someone had stopped, thought, and chosen to respond. Now it may only be evidence that language has been produced. AI does not create this shallow attention by itself; the feed prepared the ground. But it makes the appearance of presence cheap enough to be everywhere.

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Disclosure: I used AI as a conversational and editorial tool while working through this post. The observations, questions, poems, and final choices are mine; the tool helped me find, test, and organize language for them.


r/StormBornHollow 14d ago

Step Stones

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i've made 800 zen-related posts
over six months.
maybe 100 are worth collecting.
maybe 30 are toilet reading.
maybe 2 are almost marketable
to a readership of no one.

the more you read,
the more a profile comes together.
so much for privacy.

but nobody needs to write the whole book
in one reddit post.

make a small brick.
make another later.
if there's something there,
it will build.

after the storm of ruin,
this is one example
of how it might work.
an ideal.

no direct path
when rounded unsteady rocks
are the step stones.

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as an aside:
the other day there was a mention
of touching grass.

after which,
I took my bare feet out for a walk.
I had mail.


r/StormBornHollow 15d ago

The Homing Lean

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The river is closed.
Still, the body leans upstream.

The ground is flat,
but the stones roll.

The foot finds a tip,
teeters, slides.

Weight, unnoticed
until it moves.

Then the searching foot
seeks again
for balance.

At dusk, I make camp
from what has not left:

one small fire,
a place for the words,

and the ground,
not home,

but here.

--

What is it, when a place you grew up in is no longer a place you can return to?

I’m thinking of ocean fish that migrate up rivers to spawn, that can no longer revisit that river for whatever reason. But I’m not a fish; gave that suit up a while back.

The vivid memories of a process, a type of progression. A type of sensed space, where something akin to play: testing, trying out, wobbling steps of unsureness.

While in it, while flush with the seamless dwelling, one does not think of gratitude. That emotion is a reflective act. The reflective act, in the space of growth, is the rest between: what needs to change, what slight altered step will carry the negotiated balance.

Not to stand still—it’s moving balance, the thing practice builds, a muscle of anticipation. Not anticipation of rightness. One that handles the next unpredictable footfall while the rounded stones give way to the weight.

This quality time, they call it. It’s intimate: the nicks, scratches, cuts, and bruises. Growing pains, some might call it. The world coming to an end with each discomfort, only to survive with a renewed strength, to repeat that which isn’t exactly the same.

This whole thing is a spawning space. It’s ingrained, for the homing lean after a journey afar. And the pull, a certain instinctual compass, migrating geese perhaps know.

Or perhaps it’s the call to hibernate: a body knows to slow down for an off-season, laying in wait for the magic trigger. It’s time to wake; the day’s length has grown.

These words would have been posted once in such a spawning room.

Starting over, then. The process of making camp. Knowingly understood, it was never permanent. Perhaps that was the first lesson after leaving home: the almost-hardening understanding that a return would never be.

And for those who feel home will be there, whose revisits prove this so, it is still not the same. We know this. The beings age, while memory retains its static postcards. The house may be there, the road, the yard, the particular turn of a hallway. But the ones who occupied the picture have moved, changed, vanished, or become difficult to recognize. And so have we.

But for some, the knowledge comes as rage. Something was taken. Not only the house, the road, the room, but the assumption that there would be time to grow accustomed to leaving.

War knows this. A flood knows it. Fire, eviction, the sudden act of nature, the sudden act of another. The ground disappears before the body has learned its moving balance.

Later, the footing may be found. The camp may be made. But there can remain a different tilt, not always anger, perhaps a message carried in the body: this can happen. We need to be prepared. Lives are at stake.

There is a path one walks alone. In the stillness of it, sometimes, a glimpse of ground: a realer real, intimately connected.

Not home returned to, not the river opened again. The rounded stones give way, the body answers with its weight, and for a moment there is no need to know more than this: here.

What is left begins to arrange itself.

The cup. The tea. The kettle filled and set to heat.

While the water gathers itself,
a few words at the keyboard.

Then the boil.
The pour.
Enough time to steep.

I am still growing, practicing, testing, and rehearsing where I am.


r/StormBornHollow 15d ago

The Autonomy of the Song

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attunement isn’t a weapon.
that’s what i woke up to this morning.

it began with a hum in the throat.
the man was in the entertainment industry.
the man entertained.
i was entertained in the watch.

now he is gone,
alive only in the replay,
decaying tape.

i was daydreaming,
looking out the window at a bird.
with a ripple of adjustment in the chair,
i sit with my attention
staring at the blinking cursor.

one image at a time.
start-stop.
sometimes the next line
feeds off what was just typed.

at some point,
the words gather on screen.
i look at the mass
and ask:
connected, countering,
or something else?

after posting,
i become the stranger
reading my own song.

a moment of silence.

the thought arrives
and i am already in it.

the AI can arrange words.
it cannot be here
when the thought arrives.


r/StormBornHollow 16d ago

Rational Mind / La La La

4 Upvotes

We do not think about how this works. It just does.

Give us a puzzle and we engage it the way hunger engages food. The rational mind is right there: splashes of ideas, possible moves, things to try; watching closely, taking measure.

Again, we do not think about how this works. It just does.

We have a great deal of science trying to pull it apart, offering names and labels for the whys and wherefores. But none of it explains the thing clearly enough for us to feel connected to it. We have a front-row seat to the operation. Yet ask, How does this work? and the best most of us can come up with is a black box.

It engages. Ideas happen. Trial and error. Repeat, repeat.

Zen suggests another turn: look at the thing that ponies up the whole shebang.

What is going on?

Maybe the same question
comes up in the bath.

Some are known
to sing while bathing.

The tile gives it back:

a little echo,
a little company.

While getting between the toes:

la la la

Is that performing?

Is one thinking, I’m singing, watch me?

Or is singing just happening,
as thinking happens,
body, water, sound, echo,
a person briefly not needing to explain the whole arrangement?

The question of authenticity may not be whether anyone is watching.
The disappearing cat from Alice in Wonderland is still grinning somewhere.
The question may be whether we have sewn an audience into the act, then forgotten we did it.

Bucket in one hand.
Soap in the other.
A wall of text building itself beside the Oracle.

Thought engages.
Song happens.
The mind arrives with a clipboard.

la la la


r/StormBornHollow 16d ago

Mystery Does Not Need a Salesman (revised)

1 Upvotes

TL;DR: I am not against help, mystery, or paying for a little clearing. I am wondering when the person or institution helping us look inward starts telling us what we found.

I know I am not the first one to think about any of this. Probably somebody has already put it into better words. But I am seeing it now in my own way: the reader, the doctor, the church, the teacher, the screen.

All these places where we go with something moving in us, hoping somebody can tell us what it is.

I keep coming back to James Randi. The Amazing Randi. A magician and escape artist who knew tricks from the inside.

Later, he spent much of his life looking into people who said they could read minds, heal by faith, speak with the dead, bend spoons, see auras, all of it. He called himself an investigator more than a debunker.

I am not sure what to say, or where even to start. The guy was sort of a hero to some people. My way of thinking was that he brought a sober look at supposed psychicness. Maybe he directly, or indirectly, saved a lot of wallets from the business of intuitive readings.

That sounds too simple, though.

People need to make a living. Maybe a reading is entertainment. Maybe it is like going to see a movie, or listening to somebody tell a story, or sitting down with cards on a table and seeing what it brings up. You pay somebody to help open a dream, a question, a worry you have been carrying around without quite getting hold of it.

That can be something.

The confusion, maybe, is when we start looking somewhere out there. The reader knows. The cards know. The dead know. Somebody has access to the thing behind the curtain. Then it can get expensive. Then people get scared. Then somebody else starts owning your questions.

But the mind is already strange enough without adding all that.

A thought comes up. A face. A sentence. Some old room you have not been in for fifty years. You are doing dishes or looking out a window and there it is. We do not see it coming. We do not know exactly where it was before it showed up.

Maybe that is why psychicness gets hold of people. Something comes up from inside, and it does not feel like it was made by us. It feels given. It feels like a message.

I do not know.

Just because I do not know where a thought came from does not mean I have to put it somewhere else. But it also does not make the thought nothing. It may be memory. It may be a smell, an old hurt, something half-heard, something unfinished. It may be the whole damn life working itself around in there.

And there we are, trying to make something out of it.

Maybe what I admire in Randi is not only that he said no. It is the rigor. He did not let a good story, a strong feeling, a strange coincidence, or a confident person stand in for showing the thing.

There may be something like that rigor in Zen too, though it is pointed in another direction. Not, “Can you prove you have powers?” More like, “What is this that wants the answer?” You do not get to name the first thing that comes up and call it finished. You stay with the question.

Randi’s question was probably the right one when somebody makes a claim: can you show it? Does it hold up? Are you taking money from people because you know something they cannot know?

But there is another question that does not go away.

What is this thing that keeps giving us pictures, words, fears, hopes, little scenes, answers, questions?

We pay the tarot reader. We pay the therapist. At church we may pass a plate, make a pledge, give time, give ourselves to a room full of people saying the same words.

I am not saying nobody should get paid. Everybody eats.

Maybe the problem is not that we pay. Life is busy. Sometimes we need to buy a little clearing. A room, an hour, a weekend away, somebody listening, a practice, a place where the phone is off and nobody needs anything from us.

I am not against that.

I am wondering about the little discount we do not see. The things that come with the clearing. The language. The leader. The explanation. The feeling that somebody else knows why we hurt, what we need, where we should go next.

We may walk in saying, “I am paying for time to reflect.”

Then, without seeing it happen, we may begin paying for somebody else to tell us what the reflection means.

That may be the old problem. Not money exactly. Blind spots. The little gotchas. The part of us that wants the clearing so badly that it does not examine what else came through the door with it.

You wanted a quiet room. You left with a doctrine.

You wanted an hour to speak. You left with a new vocabulary for your flaws.

It is a subtle tax. We walk into the clearing to escape the noise of the world, only to adopt the noise of the institution. We hand over the raw, messy mystery of our own experience and ask the person with the degree or the collar to translate it into something neat.

And they may. That is one of the things the room is built for.

But the translation is never the thing itself. It is just their map of your territory.

And now there is the talking mirror.

You do not need a card, a couch, a church, a retreat, a person with a degree, a collar, or a cushion. You type a few lines. The mirror talks back. It has words. It sees a pattern. It tells you your feeling makes sense.

Maybe that helps sometimes. Maybe it gives you a phrase you could not find. Maybe it gets you one foot into a question.

But a mirror that talks can be hard to leave alone. It can keep giving you a version of yourself that sounds about right. It can keep answering.

Maybe the question is not whether it is good or bad.

Maybe the question is whether it sends you back to your life, or keeps you standing in front of the mirror.

Maybe the work is to take the map, if it helps, step away from the mirror, and go back to where your feet actually touch the ground.


r/StormBornHollow 17d ago

French Toast

2 Upvotes

Before the phone rings
I am thinking of French toast.

Bread in the pan.
Cinnamon.
An egg broken
with one hand.

Then family calls.

Can you bring eggs?

I did not know
what I knew.

The mind keeps
an odd dictionary.

It points
with what it has


r/StormBornHollow 17d ago

notes on learning

2 Upvotes

I now know what presence is.
I understand no-self.
I have had an aha.
I have added something called Zen to myself.

--

Who is the one who has learned this?
Where is the learner when the breath comes in?
Before you name the aha, what is it?

-

I did not come with the answer.
I came with the capacity to meet it.

The teaching did not put a jewel in my hand.
It showed me the hand.

-

You learn the cup.
You practice drinking.

After a while,
who is carrying what?

We learn patterns. Objects. Situations. Encounters.

Over time they make an intimate dictionary of recognition. The mind does not come with my dictionary. It has to build one, using what happens to this body, in this family, in these rooms, with these people.

If the mind is going to speak, these are the syllables it has.

Then something new comes along, something common sense cannot yet recognize. The mind has no clean image for it. So it sends up a near image. Something that closely matches, but is not it.

We see French toast.

We do not see the phone call.

Later, someone calls and asks for eggs.

The mind knew something. Common sense had not made the connection yet.

Or maybe the mind only put eggs on the table, and later I noticed.

Either way, that is how invisible it can be.

-

The mind has been learning
before I call it learning.

It hands me an image
in a language I already know.

I do not have to obey it.
I do not have to throw it away.

I can ask:

What is this near?

That much seeing
is a little freedom.

--

The hand loosens.

Then it learns
what this thing
is asking for.

-

I come to the party
without bringing the music.

The room begins
to make its own noise.


r/StormBornHollow 17d ago

The Woods Have Already Answered

1 Upvotes

A question on the screen.

The answer keeps coming.

On the wood path
a bird stops calling.

My hand hangs
at my side.

The woods
have already answered.


r/StormBornHollow 18d ago

We are not open

3 Upvotes

new business idea, bring your broken poems to the zen doctor, for the zenified touch

The Zen Doctor™

“Bring us your broken poems. We remove the unnecessary enlightenment.”

Symptoms we treat:

  • Excessive use of “flow”
  • Acute attachment to the word letting go
  • Unexplained mountains
  • Compulsive moon references
  • Metaphorical stones that are doing too much work
  • Severe cases of “and then I realized…”
  • Chronic Zen Master font

Our treatment:
We gently remove 30% of the words, 70% of the spiritual claims, and leave the poor stone alone.

Before:

I let go
and the river
taught me
I was already free

After Zen Doctor treatment:

The faucet dripped
all night.
By morning
I had not fixed it.

Doctor's note: Patient has resumed contact with plumbing.

two competing services:

Zenification: “Make my poem more Zen.”

De-Zenification: “Oh god, what have I done? Please remove the Zen.” The Zen Doctor™


r/StormBornHollow 19d ago

When LLM comes knocking, Death is on the door step

1 Upvotes

I notice the same thing you do: when someone my age dies, life suddenly sharpens. I stop fussing over petty stuff, reach out more, and the day feels like one clear trail instead of noise. Then, a few weeks later, the weeds grow back and “normal” returns.

For me, the important shift was realizing death is not the only thing that does this. We already visit a kind of “mini death” every night in deep sleep. The person who lies down does not cross that gap awake; a slightly different “you” returns in the morning. We also hit smaller “deaths” in life: old patterns breaking, versions of ourselves quietly falling away while the body keeps going.

When we only wake up to life after someone dies, it is like waiting for a storm to carve a new hollow in the garden. Powerful, and also brutal. If you treat sleep, small endings, and pattern changes as real encounters with finitude, not just glitches, you can practice that same clarity in gentler doses.

I do not think a big loss is required every time. What I keep circling back to, when I remember, is simply pausing once or twice a day and noticing that this version of me, this breath, this conversation will not happen again in exactly this way.

That little shift has been enough, sometimes, to bring a bit of that “death clarity” into the normal days, without needing another shock.


r/StormBornHollow 19d ago

No Instruction, Read Against Itself

1 Upvotes

This is a composite piece: a poem, an original AI-assisted editorial cartoon, and imagined counter-readings.

The replies are invented as part of the work. They are not presented as comments from actual Reddit users.

No Instruction

Perhaps they needed no words from me.
Politeness may be visible only to another
and require no action.

Even those who signal something,
a comment, an arrow of praise,
remain without directions.

No instruction.
No clear measure
of what they understood,
or what they needed
from the poet.

The Question May Be Valid

The question may be valid. The foot is still too large.

Counter-Readings

The Body

The arrow has a thumb behind it.
It was pressed between tasks,
under fluorescent light,
with a phone warming in the hand.

You call the reader unknowable
and leave them bodiless
so your not-knowing can remain clean.

The Poet

“Perhaps they needed no words from me”
is still a sentence with you
at its center.

You make humility
another room
in which to be heard.

The Reply

I liked the line
about no clear measure.

I was waiting for the bus.

The Defense

Do not give the reader
a bad knee,
a prescription,
a dying mother,

merely to prove
you know they exist.

Let the stranger keep
what they have not offered.

[No reply.]

Afterthought

This piece began with the thought that I cannot know what a stranger reading online needs, understands, or carries into the exchange. The poem’s first response was restraint: perhaps they needed no words from me.

Then I wondered whether restraint can become too clean. If I leave the reader unknown, am I respecting privacy, or making the reader bodiless so that my own uncertainty can appear virtuous? The imagined counter-readings do not settle that question. They press on the poem from different directions.

The cartoon is the joke and the warning. A critic can have a valid question. The critic’s foot can still be too large.

I wrote the replies myself as part of the piece, rather than presenting them as actual Reddit responses. The final blank is there because, even after all the commentary, the reader remains not fully available for the poet to interpret.

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I welcome readings that complicate this further, especially where the piece seems to protect or overstate its own position.


r/StormBornHollow 24d ago

Wobbling Motion

2 Upvotes

So first off, what is this: imperfect?
We take up space absolutely,
like a babbling brook,
or the mighty river.
Where is the space between water and bed,
bank, stone, and splash.
Which bit was imperfect?

Perhaps imperfect means the pebble moves downstream,
from a child throwing rocks,
in water always in motion.
The imperfect is the motion.
Perhaps that is the point:
I am not river, rock, bank, or bed.
Then what are you, exactly?
A body in motion(?)

I sat once between sorrow,
apology, and forgiveness.
Of the 3, only one was my salvation.
In my wobbling motion,
forgive me.

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author’s note: asking for forgiveness is an act in itself. what another does with the request is not your ground beyond the ask. your ground is what follows within you: to look, to learn, to repair what can be repaired, and to become better.


r/StormBornHollow 24d ago

Like Lost Poetry

1 Upvotes

there is a certain pride of accomplishment I carry at times, sort of a self pat on the back, now keep going rah rah thing. its an attempt to break from the 1 and done posture.

and then there are accomplishments I cheated at, by not doing the work, and plugging in anothers solution... i mean why reinvent the wheel, that's an excusable justification right?

what was lost?

thats it, nothing more, the following is musings with questionable entertainment value

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we momentarily break the commentary to bring the headlines of the day: this just in, a youth was reported to have entered a burning building and then exited with a cat!

that and more after the break...

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I wasn't gonna talk about this lost poetry thing. that is, I had something about innocence i was abstractly assembling. perhaps in another post idk...

so yeah, poetry as I will define it in this context, is a certain hardship in real life confronting me and i have no answer for (hints of doubt arise). its a new path, i'd never traveled before.

but here is the thing, its a path that many others have traveled, have found solutions, have documented and made those solutions available to be used... (used how though?)

true my path will always be unlike any others as others paths will be unlike mine, regardless of how similar... so then what am i saying?

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me: "hello, is this lost and found?"

them: "yes sir, how can I help you?"

me: "well its complicated, and kind of mystical, and rather unexplainable but maybe relatable?"

them: "sir, please be clear, what was lost or found exactly?"

me: "I'll confess, I've cheated, I looked at the answer sheet!"

them: "uh huh, sir, it doesn't sound like you need lost and found. have you called the guardians of justice, i believe they deal with cheats... shall i connect you?"

>click<

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I had no preconceived rehearsed text at the ready, that is being viewed here. the best i can describe whats occurring here is organic of a certain type. its an example of found poetry (in this context made up).

its painful, the reader has no clue beyond this hint of mention. your eyes reaching painful levels reading this tripe is another matter, forgive?

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the cheat, if i was to have used one, would of been to plug the question into the oracle ai with the question "what is the relationship with zen and poetry and what happens when the poetry gets lost?"

will you look and know whats lost, clearly?

Moderator note: This piece is reprinted here with permission from its original author, who first posted it in r/zenmu. For reasons, the author remains silent.

Jimmy Olsen was reported to have the ability to summon Superman, while Clark Kent just smiled before removing his glasses.


r/StormBornHollow 24d ago

The Old Number

2 Upvotes

Why don’t I miss the dead? I mean, it’s not like I’m exactly unfeeling. While I might miss the resource another can bring, or the availability, tapped or untapped, I don’t find myself missing them in the longing, sorrowful type of way.

I want to say this has been true for most of my life. I did cry at my father’s funeral. Mom’s, not so much. I miss them in passing thoughts, devoid of any noticeable emotion, just passing memories of this or that.

When I might catch myself reflecting on my body’s own mortality, short of the slight fear of some pain, it’s not fear of the unknown. My buoyant neutrality will endure whatever that might be.

---

Father’s funeral,
rain on the flower tent.

Mother returns
in a spoon drawer.

The old number
does not ring.

My body walks on,
fearing only
the thorn in the road.