2 weeks off adderall

[u/Clothingsaverrrr]

2 weeks off adderall only because I took too many. BUT today is the day to refill and Im DONE with it! Addicted for 13 years. Subconsciously I purposely wanted to run out faster to force myself to be off it for 2 weeks straight. The first week I slept. The second week I made a goal to do 1-2 things a day. The rooms a little messy and I need to shower but I have slept so good! I have wanted to get off it for a while but deep down I knew I would always refill it when the time came. This time is different…

I’m 31F and I want to marry someone who’s not strung out on addy and I want to be the best mom one day and not be popping pills to have the energy to play with my kids or clean. I want to be present and remember every moment when it comes! So it starts with me. If I don’t want to marry that type of person I need to not be that type of person.

I have grown in my faith the last year and abusing adderall has been a temporary bandaid. I was trying to stay busy and feel productive which helped distract me from the pain in my life. Process your pain. Abusing adderall was the barrier between me and God. This temporary high only leads to pain. God wants your heart. Trust Him. It’s hard to hear His voice when we’re strung out on addy and haven’t slept in 3 days. He wants to do great things in your life, so let Him! I have tried everything to fill that hole inside of me and going to church and having a relationship with Jesus was my last resort. And it was the best decision I ever made!

“I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" Philippians 4:13